Chapter 8

From afar, when I approached the school entrance, I noticed Chu Shian standing there with one hand in his pocket, eyebrows wrinkled; even with such an awful attitude, he stood out in the throng.

The females walking by all stared at him, but none dared to approach him due to his intimidating aura.

When I approached, all I heard was Chu Shian's impatient voice, without any heat: "My girlfriend doesn't like it when I add other people's Wechat."

The lovely girl in front of him became white and blue, then turned to leave.

The previously suppressed emotion quickly dissipated, and I laughed and slapped him on the back: "Can I add Wechat, Gege?"

He looked at me, his brow furrowed tighter, I smiled at him: "Girlfriend has come, why still keep this expression."

He lifted his hand to touch my face, but because the school entrance was too crowded, he controlled himself and let go: "You claimed there was nothing, but what's the matter with your eyes? "You fool me?"

He and I went inside together:"Younger, Xiao Fei Gege treated us so well, after many years, when we first met, unexpectedly this happened, I was really sad, so I sobbed for a time, also It's not that you don't know, my tear glands are fairly developed,"

Chu Shian pondered for a minute, "Why did he fall from the building, I recall he liked to laugh a lot?"

"I don't know either," I said as I dropped my gaze "Don't think about it; it's already happened.it's too impolite to ask about the cause of someone's death."

Actually, I was frightened that he would ask the people in the neighborhood, even if there was a pretty high possibility that Chu Shian would not do so, but I was still concerned. His parents would never take the tinitiative to mention it to him ;but more basically he wouldn't come back, and if he didn't ask, he'd never know.

I appeared to have been stressed to the point of neurosis, fearing any tiny risk of losing Chu Shian.

I felt at comfortable until I saw Chu Shian nod.

When we got to a remote corner of the campus, he stopped walking and delicately caressed my red, swollen eyes; his tone was furious, but his eyes were filled with pain: "How many times have I said? Something bad must be conveyed to me right .after,haven't i said? "

I remained silent, and he groaned again: "Feel sorry for yourself, An An, you have no idea how heartbroken I am."

"It won't be like that in the future," I said,my heart was warm ,grasping his hand and interlacing 10 fingers.

"I'm far from trusting you, you cheater," he murmured hopelessly, flicking his free palm across my brows.

I smiled at him and gave him a handshake.

I had been losing sleep all night for a long time but not to this extent, thus serious that sometimes even sleeping would always suffer nightmares. My appetite was getting worse and worse, but in front of Chu Shian I tried to eat delicious.

But the sorrow that continued to flood forth bothered me and made me feel stifled.

Until I couldn't take it any longer and sliced my arm with a knife and saw the blood on the table that I understood I wasn't alright.

I didn't inform anyone, and I didn't go to the hospital; I acted absolutely normal in front of other people. Chu Shian was my medication; as long as I was with him, those negative thoughts wouldn't wrap around me.

I stopped using little knives to injure myself because I was worried Chu Shian would find out and be devastated.Then I came up with an diea, I would bash my head against the wall whenever the pain became overwhelming.

My parents began regularly asking me at school in my second year of college whether I had any female friends, when I met them... This type of discourse made me dizzy, terrified, and the guilt nearly killed me to fall.

Chu Shian's connection with his parents almost came to a dead halt once Uncle Chu stated; they threatened him with severance relationships, claiming that if we parted up, they would acknowledge this son.

The connection between the two families also abruptly shifted; whenever I heard my mother whining that Mrs. Chu was making excuses for not going to my house, I would automatically change the topic. I wouldn't going to bring it up again.

But sometimes things that were necessary would still come, and you couldn't take measures. Fate enjoyed seeing your broken form, but you had no means of stopping it.

It was Friday, and I should have gone home according to the calendar, but I didn't want to be apart from Chu Shian, so he took me home in the end.

He came to a halt two junctions from the sub-district; it was dark, the road was silent on both sides, and only the feeble street lights remained illuminated, fancifal.

He clasped my hand in his palm and smiled at me, "Why are you clinging to me more and more, huh?"

I wasn't pleased just staring at him, so he grinned and held me in his arms, patting the back of my neck and coaxed me: "I just like An An clinging to me, I can't even pray for it."

I snorted, seeing that it was really late, raised my head and kissed him on the mouth, "I'm leaving, it's dark, be careful when you return."

"Go back, don't make your parents wait too long," Chu Shian said as he nodded, raised my face with both hands, and kissed me.

I walked towards the subdivision, took a few steps, then turned back to find Chu Shian still standing in the same spot, he saw me turn around and waved at me, until I walked a little further away, turned around, his figure had become nebulous, but he was still standing there looking at me.

"Idiot," I quietly muttered in my warm heart. The corner of my lips had to twist up.

As soon as I walked in, I sensitively noticed that the mood in the home was off; there was no sound of my mother's chattering while doing chores, and there was no sound of my father watching TV while criticizing a few sentences, quiet strangely.

I changed my slippers and entered the living room, where I saw my parents sitting on the sofa, my mother's eyes red and swollen from tears, and my father's face solemn, as if he was restraining fury, his hand beside him,clenching. Blue veins on the back of the hand .

"Your mother says you've still not returned home on time, and the dinner is cold...",My father said abruptly, his voice in the calm living room terrifyingly monotone."To think that we haven't been to your school yet, then should come check it out,"

I recalled the private behaviors on the opposite side of the road, a string abruptly snapped.

I believed ,I would never forget this gaze, at this very moment, I am a disobedient, unbearably corrupt child.

"Dad, mom..." I tried to call out, every bit of fear poking out from deep inside, making my voice a little hoarse.

My father's restrained emotions suddenly broke out, he stood up and walked in front of me without hesitation, giving me a slap: "Disgraceful!"

This one slap hit me very hard, I was slapped and shaken before I could stand still, there was a shrill hiss in my ears, and my head was also empty, without the ability to think.

Teeth cracked the corners of my mouth, I tasted fresh blood.

His ribs and gasps were wildly up and down, followed by an exhausted look,hands shaking, taking a deep breath, and saying: "I should have thought of it earlier, something happened to you in the morning of Wang Lan's family, was you with Chu? Shian?! Because of you two, the Chu family does not interact with our family ,right ?Right?!"

I didn't say anything and knelt hard on the ground, witheringly.

Above me, I could hear heavy breathing and my mother's falling wail.

After what felt like a century of silence, my father began to approach to the door, saying, "I also want to ask their family how they teach their son!"

In a second, tremendous terror overwhelmed me, and I unconsciously drew my father's arm, my fingers trembling: "That's not the truth, Dad! I liked Chu Shian first! It's me! "I was the first to begin!"

My father couldn't believe it, turned to gawk at me, as if experiencing an unbearable onslaught, every letter was squeezed out of his teeth: "Su An! You mention something else for me! You don't even require a face because of a boy?!"

My mother knelt beside me crying like she was about to suffocate, slapping my back one by one: "How can you do this?!You told your parents what to do!You told your mom what to do!"

I knelt there, my spine arched, feeling each beat hit my heart; it so severely that I couldn't breathe nor talk.

My father took a few deep breaths, then yanked me up and dragged me into the room: "You remain in the room to apologize to your father! You don't have to go to school anymore; daddy will give you a break ! Come out whenever you have a clear thought and want to break up! There are no homosexual Su family members who love men!"

Despite the fact that my father brought me into the room, he violently took my phone away, closed the door, and exited. Just then, I heard the door to the room close and lock,closed so tight that it cut off all the crying outside, leaving behind a cold body.

Chapter end