Voices In My Head

Wha-what was that?! Why can't i remember any of that??!I putted my hands on my face and falled on my knees.

"Because you wanted to delete it from your mind, all your mistakes...you throw them here."

I looked around, what the hell is this place?

"It's nothing more than your mind."

I looked in front of me, was that a mirror?

"I'm not a mirror, i won't told you who i am until a couple more of years."

I calmed down somehow.

"Fine, so this is my mind...I can't remember what happened after i gived that liquid to that ra- slave, could you tell me?"

"You killed him."

"What?"

"He was useless, he never bringed you the exact things you asked him to get you from the caves, and if he did you already got them in the Capital, if you asked i don't know...for the heart of a little monster he always refused. So you killed him, he was just a waste of time."

"..."

"Not the answer you were expecting? Well if it makes you fell any better, thanks to him you advanced a lot do."

"What?"

"You opened his torso and grabbed his organs for your little project, at least he was of use for one time on his life."

"Did i murder more people?"

"Yes."

"How many?"

"Let's say a 16 slaves and 2 people from the Residence."

"That many?"

"Yes, you really are expert getting rid of the body's you know? If some day you get out of here you could become a serial killer."

"I don't have intention on doing that."

At least for now...I don't know how i calmed down so fast, i guess this is not my first time here...

"What are you going to do after becoming a engineer sended by the gods?"

"I don- Wait, did you just said engineer sended by the gods?"

"You hear me."

"But- why the fuck Opiekun or Svetlyy didn't tell me about that?? They told me that it was called principal engineer!"

"It looks like they tricked you."

"How do you know about that??!! Why would i want to delete that from my mind??"

"Oh...Well, i think i messed things out because of my mouth...Whoops."

"What do you mea...You aren't my awareness are you?"

"Erm, hey, let's be positive! Now you know that-"

I runned into that person that looked like me and gived him a knock on his neck, he falled on his knees and started coughing.

"What are you?"

"I- I don't know either, but i been here since you got born, sometimes i can get out of here and start walking with complete freedom, that's how i knew about that engineer thing!!"

"Since when you knew about it?"

"Only a couple of days ago!! I was walking and saw Father Opiekun so i got closer to him so i can hear what he was saying!!"

"A days ago? Why didn't you telled me before?"


"Because i didn't wanted to ruin this for you!"

"You already did, my life just falled to the trash..."

That thing looked at me with a face of sorry, he really didn't wanted to tell me that...Just...What i'm going to do with my life now?

"Why don't we try to anyway? Maybe we can get a little of luck? What if there exist a god of venenum-"

"The Temple only works with the gods of light, no with dark gods."

"Then you could have though that you were getting denied, since your project wasn't for good."

"My project could have helped their knights."

"...I'm...sorry..."

"Fuck, what are we going to do now??"

"I don't know..."

I falled on my knees too, getting front at front with him.

"Maybe we should leave the Temple..."

I sighed.

"I'll just do what you sayed before..."

"You are just going to try?"

"Yes..."

"Do you... want to go back?"

"Yes, please..."

I raised my head, i was back at my room. I looked at my left, that thing was on my bed.

"Hi."

So he leaved my mind at night. I looked at my project, i want to destroy i-

"Wait! You told me you were going to- you are going to try!"

I stared at the clock, it was 3 AM, the evaluation is going to be tomorrow, but since there's a lot of people i'll get evaluated after tomorrow.

"Move, i want to sleep."

"Oh! Okay, well, hope to see you soon."

That thing disappeared. I lained on my bed and closed my eyes. What a long day...I forgot to ask him why the fuck he tormented me, probably because he was bored, well...who i am for judge him?

Chapter end