He only married me to show her that he already moved on Chapter 82 - eighty-two: His big heart problem

Madi's POV:

Eleven o'clock in the evening.

I heard the ring of my phone. I opened my sleepy eyes and tried to hear again if it's really my phone rings or I am just dreaming.

But it rings again.

"Gosh! It's really my phone! Who is this angel from heaven who would love to call from this hour?" I asked myself feeling annoyed. 

I opened my bedside lamp and get my phone but the name that's flashing on the screen is none other than Gabriel's name.

"Hello?" I greet in a sleepy voice.

"Hi love, good evening." 

When I heard the word love, I suddenly remembered what Stacey told me earlier in the hospital, about Gabriel's feelings towards me before.

"Hi, what time is it there?" I asked not knowing what to say. Stacey's words were now dancing behind my mind.

"It's five in the morning here, so I called before you go to sleep."

"Hmm.. actually, I was already asleep before you call."

"Oh..I'm sorry. It's only ten pm in Chicago right?"

"I'm not in Chigaco. I am in Florida. It's already eleven pm here."

"Oh love, I'm sorry. W-When did you go there?" I can hear the disappointment from his voice.

"Yesterday morning." 

"Hmm.. so how's your Mom?"

"She's okay. Ahm.. do you have something to tell me, so you decided to wake up early at five just to call me, Gabriel?"

I heard him sighed.

"Actually, I just want to hear your voice. I haven't heard your voice for almost two days. And of course to say I missed you and I love you."

"Gabriel-----"

"I know. I understand, but please just let me do and say these things to you. I just want you to know that I love you, Madi."

"You already told me that." I smiled, biting my lips.

"Yeah?"

"Yeah." my smile widened more when I heard him chuckled on the other line. But when I remembered about Stacey's child, I sighed loudly.

"Why? Is there something happened?"

"Why didn't you tell me that Stacey's child was not yours?"

"Ohh... I - I was planning to tell you that actually. But I just don't know how to start. I don't want you to think anything from the past, especially when Stacey's involved because she was the reason why you left me."

"I saw her earlier."

"In Florida?"

"Yeah, in the hospital."

"What is she doing in the hospital?"

"She's taking care of her father who was diagnosed with a third stage lung cancer. And at the same time she's also busy attending the needs of her son, who also diagnosed with brain tumour."

"A brain tumour?"

"Yeah, he's too young for that."

"And Ray? What is he doing?"

"He ran! He ran away from his obligations!"

"F.u.c.k him! His son is suffering right now but he just ran?"

"He doesn't know. He broke up with her when knows that he's going to be a father."

"F.u.c.k him!"

I can't blame him for cursing Ray, not because he stole his woman before, but for being a total asshole and irresponsible father. That's the same feeling I felt earlier.

I sighed. "Can I.... ask you something?"

"Yeah, sure!"

"Can you tell me where have you been all those nights and days that you're not staying at home? Because she told me, you're not with her with all those nights."

I also heard his intake of deep breath. "Can I answer that in person? Can I explain myself in front of you?"

"Huh? But why can't you just answer me now? Is it a hard question?"

"No, I am---"

"Then why can't you tell me right now?"

"Madi---"

"Did you have another woman before other than Stacey?"

"What? No! Where did you get that?" his voice turned shocked and horrified.

"I just want to know the truth."

"When I married you, it's always been you. I never tried to look for another woman or in other woman, even when you left me because I love you. And I promised to you that I won't cheat, right? Do you still remember?"

"Then why can't you answer a simple question?"

"Because I want to tell you that personally."

"Okay." I shrugged even though I know he won't see me. "Good night, Gabriel."

"Madi, wait! Are you upset?"

I didn't answer him. Am I?

"Please love, don't be upset with me."

When he noticed that I am not responding, I heard him sighed.

"I-I was attending some appointments by that time."

I remained quiet.

"I attended psychological therapies."

I was left dumbfounded with what I heard.

"I'm sorry? What did you say?" I urged him to repeat what he said.

"I attended psychological therapies, Madi."

"B-But why? F-For what?" why did he need to seek for therapy?

"Because I told you, I was confused by that time. I don't know how to manage my feelings. I love you but the urge and eagerness inside me to get revenge and hurt Stacey was always controlling me. And sometimes, that rage towards the things she did to our child, becomes my nightmares, Madi. Almost every night."

I gasped as I covered my mouth.

"Sometimes I woke up gasping for air. Anxiety filled my mind. I don't know how to stop hating her. I don't know how to move on from the anger. No matter how I tried."

"B-But why didn't you tell me before? I could have understood you." 

I said bringing my hand to my chest. Tears are now forming in my eyes as some questions started to kick inside my head. What if he told me those things before, could I still end up leaving him?

"I'm sorry. I don't know how to. Because that time, there's only one goal in my head. I want to become a better man for you, Madi. I want to love you with the whole Gabriel again. Gabriel without hate, without anger, without revenge on his mind and Gabriel who can be at your side every time you need him. And that's why I needed to seek an appointment to cure what's inside me. How to move on from the baggage of my past."

A small sob escaped from my lips. I don't know how to respond after all of what I heard. He's suffering from that problem but I left him and didn't ask him the truth.

"Are you still there?"

"Huh?" I managed to hold back the sob from my throat as I as answered. " How are you? I mean, how do you feel today about what happened in your past?"

"I'm now okay actually." he suddenly chuckled. "Except for my heart."

I scrunched my eyebrows. " Your heart? But why.. do you have a heart problem?" I started to panic.

"Yes. A big heart problem."

"What?" my voice raised a bit. "Have you already asked for the doctor's opinion regarding your heart condition?"

"Yes, but I'm still waiting for her answer."

I can hear a small chuckle from the other line but I ignored it.

"What? But how long will she give you the result or the answer?"

"I actually don't know."

"Then why don't you consult for another doctor?"

"Oh, I can't do that! Now not and not ever!"

"And why? I'm sure she's not just the best doctor in town, you can find someone better than her!" I couldn't help not to raise my voice again. This man is really stubborn.

"Yes, but she's the only one I know that can cure to my heart's problem. And do you know what's her name?"

"Do I still need to know what's her name?"

"Of course! She's my heart's doctor and her name is Madielyn Davis- Wilsons. She's the best doctor I've ever known in town. And until now I'm still waiting for her answer." and he chuckled after that.

"Argh! Gabriel Wilsons! I swear, I'm gonna kill you!" I said through gritted teeth.

But he just continued laughing.

"It's okay. Don't worry, I'm just going to love you."

"Good night, Mr. Wilsons!" I acted annoyed but the truth is I can't control the stupid smile that crept on my lips.

"Wait.. when are you going back to Chicago?"

"Ahm..tomorrow."

"Hmm.. see you in Chicago?"

I nodded but I remember he can't see me. "Yeah.. see you in Chicago." and I smiled.

"Okay, good night to you there in Florida."

I chuckled. "And good morning to you there in Paris."

"I love you, Mrs. Wilsons."

I just closed my eyes.

"Bye." then I ended the call.

I fall back in bed with a smile on my lips.

-'I love you too, Mr. Wilsons.'- I muttered to myself before I closed my eyes again.

Chapter end