He only married me to show her that he already moved on Chapter 64 - sixty-four: She finally realized

"Madielyn!" 

George pulled me out of the clinic after she finished some laboratory tests with her doctor.

"What?" I asked her, confused.

"When did you get married? You didn't tell me you're already married! And what was that inside, what was that scene? I thought you're dating that Gabriel guy? What happened, why he was with that pregnant woman?"

-'Ohh, so she still doesn't know.'-

"Yes, we're married but just in papers-----"

"What? What do you mean you're married but just in papers? Does your Mom know about this?"

My eyes widened with her question. "No, she doesn't know any of this. And it's a long story, George. I promise I'm going to explain all this to you but not now."

"Fine. But tell me who's that girl with him? Was she his real friend or-----"

"Ex-girlfriend."

"Ex-girlfriend?" I nodded. " If she's the ex and your the wife----what was that Madielyn?" her face turned into a scowl.

"Hey, relax George." I chuckled while trying to calm her.

"Relax? You're the one who's really telling me to relax?" she put her hands on her h.i.p.s while glaring at me.

"Because you're pregnant."

"Gosh, Madielyn! You're just letting your husband to go with his ex-girlfriend? What kind of a wife you are?"

"Huh!" I gasped. Why me? "George, listen to me, please! It's not what you think it is! I told you I'm gonna explain this to you in some other time!"

"Fine!"

We separate our ways when we reached the parking lot, because we occupied a different parking space.

"Madi!"

I heard Gabriel's voice when I was about to open my car door. I turned to look at him and I saw him running towards my direction. He took my hand, but I didn't protest or even complain. I'm just looking at him.

"Love.. she texted me earlier. She said she needs to see her doctor today for her check-up and she doesn't have anyone to go with her."

"Why are you explaining to me, Gabriel?" I asked, acting as if it's just nothing to me.

"Because you need to know about this, you're my wife." he said taking again my other hand.

I chuckled at him sarcastically. 

"Really? I am your wife? Gabriel, if you consider me as your wife, you're going to tell me about this before you decided to go with her. But it's okay, 'cause I know I'm not your real wife, I'm just your fake wife. And I didn't ask your explanation, because sooner or later, this deal will come to an end."

"No-----" 

I cut him off immediately.

"Gabriel, I told you. You don't need to explain. Everything's fine with me. We're married in the first place because of her. You're here because of her. She's pregnant and she needed you, she needs the father of her baby." I shrugged my shoulders.

"Madi.. please let me clear this things. When she texted me, I was just about to call her to have an early DNA test with the baby."

"Oh.," I said nodding. "I see. I thought you get back together, because you're so sweet.. you know, 'kissing." I just muttered the last word to myself.

"You saw us?" his eyes widened.

-'Oh, gosh! I said it out loud? Argh! stupid!'-

"Well, yeah." I choose to say the truth. "I just didn't show myself because I don't want to interrupt you and your romantic moment together."

"Madi, I'm telling you it's not what you think it is----"

"Gabriel, whatever I am thinking, does it matter? It's the second time I saw you kissing her, and it's also the second time you're telling me, that it's not what I think it is. Well, whether you're the one who kissed her or she's the one who made the first move... the fact is, I don't care! You can kiss all the girls you want to kiss and I'm not in a position to judge you or to stop you!" I opened the door on the driver side but I was stopped in the middle when I heard him speak.

"You're jealous." 

My head immediately snapped at him and I laughed the hidden truth about it.

"Me, jealous? Do you hear yourself, Gabriel? Why would I be jealous if in the first place, I don't even have a single right to feel that? And we're just 'friends' right? And I was just your 'fake' wife!"

"Love-------"

"Gabi!"

But he was cut off by the voice of the bitch behind him. I glanced at her as he also turned around.

"What?" he asked in an irritated manner.

"I can feel something hurt in my belly, Gabi. Ouch!"

My face turned sour when she held her belly and acted like she's really in pain. I can help not to shake my head and smiled in irritation. I thought I was the only one holding a title of being the best actress, but guess what.. I was wrong, because I was just the first runner up here. The real winner is the bitch-Stacey in front of me. 

-'Tsk.Tsk.Tsk. Congratulations! We have a winner!'-

But Gabriel, of course, run towards the mother of his second baby. I don't know why I'm still standing there and watch them doing their seems natural act. A bitch who's just obviously acting her fake pain just to have Gabriel on her side, and Gabriel who seemed very concerned to his beloved ex.

-'This is it! This is too much!'-

I muttered and turned away my eyes from them. I opened my car door and finally closed it, ignoring my husband who followed me while calling my name.

Three days later...

Three days.. I gave myself three days to think of all the things and happenings in these past weeks and days in my life. I filed a three days vacation leave so I can give time to myself and analyze what I want, what I need and what I feel.

The advice of the lady in the restroom were keep ringing on my head even at night, when I am going in bed or when I am about to close my eyes...

**Being in pain doesn't mean, you have to let those people or person hurt you repeatedly**

Did I allow him to do this, or I am the one to blame why he's doing this repeatedly?

**If you spend too long holding on to him, which you know doesn't treat you the way you deserve, you'll miss finding the one who will treat you as his priority. Don't waste your time and your tears.**

Am I that hopeless.. holding on to someone whom I know who can't love me back?

**Don't waste your love for someone who can't see your worth.**

Am I not enough? Am I never going to be enough?

**Leaving him will cause you hurt, pain and a wound from it. But when the pain subsides, the wound will heal. It will be left you a scar but it will fade and disappear over time.**

I wish it will, because if only tears could heal the pain inside me... I think I would have to cry in my whole life, because I don't know when will I stay in love with him.

**Don't embrace the pain, embrace the life and happiness you will have after it.**

How could I not embrace the pain, if even I don't allow myself... she's the one embracing me?

But as they say, everything has an ending. In every sacrifice, we need to put an end to stop it from bringing us in pain. And I finally realized that it should be my time to think about myself. 

I need to get up and bring the old me, the 'Old Madi' again. Who's always willing to help others but she didn't forget how to help herself first. The one who's brave and strong to face every consequence that life throws on her.

And now it's time...

Chapter end