For My Healing Life Chapter 19

Translator: Qiuqiu-chan

Editors: Essence and Nafia (yes, I have been blessed with two editors)

I'm currently working on a Character page, I'm finding it difficult to keep track of all these boys.

Editor-nims and I have decided to keep name suffixes, e.g., Jitae-ya, Han-ah, Suan-ie, Suan-ssi, PD-nim, as it can express the type of relationship the speaker has with the person. I actually found a great post on these suffixes, so if you're confused as to their meanings, check this link out.

[T/N:Park Jitae's POV]

His face set, Lee Suan turned and left the practice room without a word.

Ah, what to do……. is he really angry?

I began feeling dismayed, worried, and embarrassed.

The condition of his body didn't look good today, as expected, he must be sick.

I put both hands on my head, ‘I must be crazy.' and tore at my hair in self-punishment. In a delayed attempt to follow, I exited the practice room and ran around the halls looking for Lee Suan.

“Lee Suan!”

“Hey. Lee Suan!”

I ran around the company and yelled here and there, but although I called Lee Suan's name, there was no returning answer. No, there was no returning Lee Suan.

Aish. Why did I have to play the angry role.

While internally complaining, I ran around here and there for quite some time, diligently looking for the disappeared Lee Suan.

Not here, either……. as expected, did he leave outside of the company out of anger?

I eventually returned to the practice room, took the cell phone out of my bag and tried to make a phone call.

Ah, I don't even know this guy's cell phone number…….

Yes, I tried making a call. Because there was no reason to call him separately before, it wasn't an inconvenience. Rather than that, it's likely that I didn't care enough to know.

I looked at the useless, discarded cell phone lying in my hand, and made a call to the youngest.

After hearing the call progress tone for some time, at last Ryu Sunho answered the call.

– Hello!

“Yah, I messed up.”

– Ehh? Jitae hyung! No way, did you get caught by Suan-ie hyung?

“No, I didn't get caught…….”

– (If you didn't get caught, can we come in now?) Then we'll meet Seo Yoon hyung, light the candles, and come right in! (The wrapping is almost finished.) [the parentheses is Oh Rion talking in the background]

“Haa, Lee Suan, ran away because he was angry.”

– (Shall I wrap it with a ribbon? Yes. Could you do it as fast as possible? I'll do that. I'll diligently do it as fast as possible.) Jitae hyun should have followed! Have you tried calling Suan-ie hyung? [italics is an employee. roman, i.e., non-italic is Oh Rion]

“Yah! You think I wouldn't follow him out? I followed him out. I went out, but he had already disappeared, what was I supposed to do?”

– (One has been all wrapped, are you in a big hurry? Please hurry a little, please take care of it.) So, what about calling? Is he not answering the phone either?

I stole a glance at the camera installed within the practice room.

“If I call, he might get angrier and not answer or come. So you or Oh Rion should try calling him once.”

– Regardless of that! Hyung should have called quickly! Hurry up and hang up, so you can call Suan-ie hyung!

“Al, alright”

I hurriedly ended the call and once again tried to make a call, but to Seo Yoon hyung.

– Jitae-ya? What is it?

“Hyung, the birthday party is ruined. Lee Suan got angry and ran out.”

– You said Suan-ie left?

“Yeah, you said the hidden camera was too boring. If he's really angry, what will I do? His body's condition really didn't look good today.

– Don't you think he's still in the company? Because cake hadn't arrived yet, I was continuously standing in front of the company's main entrance. I didn't see Suan-ie coming out of the main entrance.

“Ah. I've been running all around searching inside of the company, but I've been unable to see even one strand of hair. At any rate, it seems like he's gone outside of the company. If he didn't leave through the main entrance, isn't it that he's gone out through the company's back door?”

– If you go that way, isn't that the route to our dormitory? When I get the cake, I'll go look for him right away. Jitae, you should go to the dormitory first.

“Ah, I will. Since he may possibly still be inside the company, if hyung gets the cake, you should wait in the practice room. I'll go to the dormitory.”

– Alright, once I get the cake I'll go to the practice room right away. If you happen to meet Suan-ie, make sure to call me immediately.

“Yes.”

After ending the call with Seo Yoon hyung, I perfunctorily draped on my coat and ran to the dormitory. Even when I felt my breath catching in my throat, I ran without stopping and with a distance that took 25 minutes I arrived in 10.

The dormitory was quiet and had a chilly atmosphere, there was no feeling of a person's energy.

Aish. He's not here either. Where exactly did this guy go?

Full of frustration, I took a breath and mussed up my hair.

No matter how much Oh Rion said his acting was obvious, I should have just made Oh Rion play the role. I was filled with sense of regret.

For the first time in his life, we all wanted to wish Lee Suan a happy birthday together, but to a kid whose body condition didn't look good, we did such terrible behaviour as a hidden camera. It's obvious that he would dislike it.

Ah, were my words really too extreme?

I felt like I was searching in the dark for an answer I couldn't find, while wandering through a maze.

– Jeeeng

The cell phone that I had hastily thrown in my bag in case I got a call, was vibrating repeatedly and consistently. With the hand that I mussed my hair with, I pulled out my cell phone from my bag.

On the screen of the vibrating cell phone, ‘Oh Rion' was written. I slightly pressed the screen with my finger and held it up to my ear.

“Yes.”

– Did you find Suan hyung?

“No. He's not at the dormitory either.”

– The gift-wrapping is all finished, so we're going to the company now.

“Alright, I'll also go the practice room. He went out with such an angry expression, he wouldn't have come to the dormitory.”

– Okay, we'll go and be in the practice room.

“Ah, calling? Did you try it?”

– Yes, we keep calling but he's not picking up.

“Is that so……. I got it. I'll see you there.”

– Okay.

Haa……, really, Lee Suan where are you?

***

The four of us, minus Lee Suan, gathered together in the practice room and conversed with the staff who had continuously filmed us from our dormitory till now.

“You know everything must be filmed and edited by today, right?"

I thought I must truly be crazy, seeing as the voice of the staff who smiled and talked like always, was starting to annoy me.

"That is, Suan-ie's body condition wasn't good, so he went back first. If by any chance we aren't able to send the video within the time limit, what happens then?

Everyone went quiet and shut their mouths, but in the midst of this subdued atmosphere, Seo Yoon hyung spoke.

"Ah, true. Suan-ssi did seem to be having some difficulty. When I was editing the show, I saw that he remained by himself to sing and dance the live cover of 'Yoso', while the others washed up or returned to the dormitory to grab their bags. Hardly sleeping and doing it to that point, it'd be strange if he was healthy.  I'll consult Lee Han PD."

Consult? Wasn't he a staff member?

On being stared at questioningly, he said, "Ah. Did I not introduce myself? I'm the PD in charge of Iridescent, Choi Hoso. I have big expectations for this show since I have the chance to film and plan together with Lee Han PD. You saw Lee Han PD installing the cameras, I believe?"

Not staff, but PD. Is what you're saying?

All the members had a mental breakdown.

"Ah, you were a PD. I'm sorry, I didn't know."

"Haha, I must really have not introduced myself? Seeing as you all look so surprised."

"Yes, we were a little surprised. As it is, we think it'll be good to wait until you finish consulting with the other PD."

As soon as Seo Yoon hyung finished speaking, to the alarm of the members, the laughing and nodding Choi Hoso PD took out his cell phone, and after tapping a few times, brought it to his ear and started a call.

"Uh, Han-ah. It's me."

We sat in silence and listened to Choi Hoso PD's phone call.

"Yeah, I'm doing well. So there's a part of the plan that we want to change, is that alright?"

While talking, Choi Hoso PD glanced at us. 'Don't worry,' he mouthed silently and laughed softly.

"No, I think rather than judging part of a video, it would be better to change to when they actually perform it. Yeah, no, no. I think it would be easier to pinpoint the parts where they make mistakes. Yeah, yeah. Is it okay? Ah, if you say it that way, I feel pressured. Ooh, I'm getting goosebumps. Okay, yeah. Thanks."

Choi Hoso PD's phone call finished much sooner than expected.

"Okay [spoken in English], is what he said! Instead of the video, on the day that we judge, it's decided that you will directly perform it. Unlike in the video, which can be filmed without a single mistake and edited to make you look cool, those parts can be full of mistakes or filmed to look ridiculous. We will not edit even if you make a mistake. Do you understand?"

" " " "Yes. Thank you." " " " [all members are speaking]

He spoke with a nice person smile, towards us who were gathered together sitting, "Therefore, that day, you'll have to work hard to not make any mistakes." changed the SD card in the camera and exited.

"Carefully return."

"I'm really grateful to PD-nim."

"I'm truly grateful for today!"

"Thank you."

Towards the leaving PD-nim stood up, bowed, and bade farewell. I glanced at the clock on the practice room wall, it had already become this late.

At this point, should we go back to our dormitory?

"Today, should we go back to our dormitory, at this time?"

"Yes."

"Let's go quickly! It's possible for Suan-ie hyung to be at the dormitory!"

Before Seo Yoon hyung could finish saying, "Let's go." I had already packed up my belongings and headed towards the practice room's door.

"Jitae must be very worried about Suan-ie, we should go as well."

"Yes! It's still 11:20, so we can wish a happy birthday. It'll be great if Suan-ie hyung is at the dormitory."

"Mm, I agree. It'd be nice if hyung was there."

"Alright, if Suan-ie is there, we should throw the birthday party right away. It'll be good if he's not angry anymore, right?"

"Yes! I want to see Suan-ie hyung."

"Mm, me too."

"Ah, come on. Hurry up and come out."

I shouted exiting the practice room and ran to our dormitory. I heard several footsteps following behind me, it seems the members had packed up quickly and were steadily running towards me.

Before entering our dormitory, I stood in front of the door and took a deep breath, then opened the door.

Ah, has he still not come?

I couldn't hear a single noise in the darkened dormitory.

"Huh? Suan-ie hyung must be here!"

Glancing at Ryu Sun-ho's bright smile, I followed his gaze and looked down. Lee Suan's shoes were neatly placed.

"Lee Suan!"

I didn't need to think long. I removed my shoes and tossed them aside, entering the room I saw Lee Suan still wearing his coat and lying on the bed.

"Lee Suan. At least take off your coat before sleeping."

I walked closer to the bed, looking down, I extended my hand.

…this crazy.

"Yah! Lee Suan! Get up!"

The temperature of Lee Suan's body that I felt beneath my fingertips was hot enough that I could barely keep my fingers there.

"Jitae hyung? What's wrong?"

"Jitae-ya? Isn't Suan-ie sleeping?"

"Yelling like that, if Suan hyung gets angry again, what are you going to do hyung?"

I looked at the members who had followed me in, their arms full of cake and wrapped gifts,

"This guy's fever is really terrible. Seo Yoon hyung! Do we have a thermometer in our dormitory?"

"Huh, ah! We do! Hang on, I'll go get it."

"Oh Rion, go get some wet towels. Ryu Sunho, you'll help me. We need to take off this guy's clothes."

While Seo Yoon hyung went to get the thermometer, Oh Rion was sent out and Ryu Sunho and I lifted Lee Suan and removed his coat.

This guy, even when his body isn't feeling well, why does he insist on not saying anything about being sick.

I was worried and my heart ached.

"Don't get hurt."

"Lee Suan, I beg of you. Don't get hurt."

Nafia, when Jitae thought Suan wasn't in the dormitory: ‘wait so he just…decided that LS wasn't there based on the aura of the building? boiiii'

Chapter end