I didn't think of it like that . " Clovis admitted suddenly feeling rather thoughtless . "I care about her . I could give her the attention she deserves… I just don't know if I could give her my whole heart . " Clovis tried to reason aloud . He knew he could show her affection and care, but love?
That bitch had twisted his heart so much that he didn't know if he could do it again . All he could think of was the night she turned her back on him, showing him the ring and asking him to pretend they never met . What she had done to their child…
"If it was before that bloody woman came into my life…" he cursed aloud rubbing his temples in exasperation . The tension there was starting to form a headache . Moon tilted her head .
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"Who?" Moon asked, unable to restrain her curiosity . As a familiar it was normal to know everything about your Master, but as Kyera… it felt strange to ask such personal questions .
"Raina's mother . That thing caused so much havoc I don't know if I can love again . " Clovis explained, remembering she wasn't around for that . He rolled over again letting himself rest against her back, enjoying the furr .
"You can't blame the dead for death . " Moon whispered feeling him against her furry side . Most people she would have backed off but this felt comfortable and innocent . There was no reason to be too defensive in this position .
A sharp, barking laugh surprised her from her thoughts . "No . You can't . However you can blame the living for abandoning your child to die . You can also blame the living for making such lies necessary . " Clovis replied his voice ice cold . Moon looked back at him curiously .
"Lies?" Moon asked honestly just wanting to let him get it out . It was fairly clear he needed to talk . She didn't mind being the ear he poured himself out to .
"My love resting in peace is not Raina's mother . Her mother was my lover before I married . She was pregnant, I was excited and preparing to marry her . Then she disappeared . " Clovis began to explain and just couldn't stop despite Moons obvious surprise . "i thought something bad had happened and waited as long as I could but my father arranged a marriage for me . I thought she was never coming back so I agreed . It was the best decision I ever made . " he sifjed, sitting up a bit to look at the tigress beside him but then away at the cool crystal water .
"She appeared again months later no longer pregnant and informed me I had no chance to be Emperor and she would be marrying my brother . I asked her about our child and I found out she ABANDONED Her in a small village with a family who couldn't feed themselves much less a baby . " the fire and anger was starting to surface in his tone . It found a match in the angry tiger heart beside him, she wanted to pace, but knew he was comfortable .
"she was malnourished, that's why Raina looks so small . " Moon made the realization aloud . Clovis nodded, surprise seeming to cool his anger a bit as he noticed hers .
"Malnourished is putting it nicely . She had not been fed barely at all from what I could tell . She would have died there had I not gone after her . I had just lost my wife to sickness and I claimed she died in childbirth and brought home my little girl . " Clovis finished the story and glanced up at the palace behind where his daughter now slept peacefully .
"Why lie? She was the one in the wrong . You could have sought justice . " Moon asked honestly her anger clouding her judgement . Clovis chuckled darkly .
"I wanted to . I wanted to see her whipped bloody to be honest with you . Abandoning a baby relying on you for a chance to live… even if i did something wrong it wasnt Raina's fault . " Clovis replied, "And thst is also why I didn't . It wasn't Rains's fault . That child believing her mother died is better than asking why her mother didn't love her . Being taunted by other children because her mother left her to die . That's not the life I wanted for her . That's why I have to become Emperor . I have to make damn sure no one will EVER make her suffer again . " Clovis explained as he fiddled with a rope on the ground . Je glanced down to realize it was odd for a rope to be tossed out here . Then he looked down, in his hands was the silver tip of a tiger tail . Beside him Moon waited patiently for him to let go .
"Well… I guess you caught me by the tail . What's next?" Moon teased and Clovis chuckled lightly .
"To be honest Moon, I have No idea . " he replied sighing again as he stood up and stretched . Moon rose to her feet and shook her body, fluffing and resettling her fur .
Chapter end
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