The Journey of Flower Chapter 130

Mo Bingxian has looked for Hua Qiangu everywhere, but could not find her. He doesn't know whether she's still in the Cloud Palace or not. He was well aware that if she purposely wanted to hide herself, nobody in the world can find her. As the days passed by, Hua Qiangu never still did not show up. Mo Bingxian's cold-hearted personality has become a little restless, he doesn't know if his consumption of her power would be enough for the Immortal Realm to seal her. Thinking about this, he increasingly worried about her end-result. In a few days, the Immortal Realm will launch a counterattack, needless to say, it would be one of the biggest wars in history. Obviously, it's like throwing the egg against the stone, the chance of victory is very slim. But he knows in his heart that the only person they need to deal with is Zhu Ran, Hua Qiangu doesn't care about winning or losing at all. The eyes like stagnant water occasionally reveal only despair and exhaustion, no different from a dying person. In fact, she's tired of all this, just want to get it over quickly.

He has been counting the days, and finally the last day is approaching. Mo Bingxian didn't believe that Zhu Ran and his people didn't know about their plan at all, but it's just that the Six Realms have become weirdly quiet. 

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Hua Qiangu stood by a small river bank, the river has already dried up. She remembers a long time ago that she liked to catch fish and crabs in the river barefoot. Her father sat under the eaves reading and from time to time she could hear his intermittent coughing. When he is in good spirits, he would teach her to read, write or make a beautiful paper kite for her.

It's just in a blink of an eye, many years have passed. Her small wooden house had long disappeared. Since the birth of the demon god, the sky has changed, and the drought has been going on for several years. People in the village either died or relocated elsewhere, there are not many left.

She pulled the grass out of father's grave and repaired it. She then found some woods, knocking them, followed the memories she wanted to rebuild the wooden house. Even though her supernatural power is powerful, due her clumsiness, after two days of building it, but still looks very shabby. Not to mention that she often get lost in thought and hit the hammer on your hand. By the time the construction is completed, the wooden house turned into a flower house. Flowers are blooming everywhere, and flower vines are climbing. Hua Qiangu was lying in the darkness, she felt as in the past, having a little roof that helps her block the wind and rain, reassurance and dependable. It's like being wrapped in the mother's stomach. She recalled those days, lying in Bai Zihua's arms.

There is a dense of darkness in the sky, it's been many days since the sun disappeared. She knows that she shouldn't influence the sun and the moon and affecting the earth, rivers and mountains just  by her emotions, but she has almost no control over these.

Suddenly she noticed someone was coming, it's the breath she's familiar with, her hands could not help but trembled a bit.

The man just stood by the door, but he didn't come in. Hua Qiangu smiled with bitterness in her heart. Since he doesn't want to see her, why bother come to find her.

"It's windy outside, come in and sit down. Although the cottage is too simple, it may not be hospitable, there is always a place for temporary lodging."

Bai Zihua opened the door and came in.

Hua Qiangu was sitting and randomly propped on a plank. Her purple eyes fixed on him, very calm like quiet waves. The two looked at each other for a long time in the dark. Bai Zihua randomly searched for a place and sat down. His white clothes is as white as snow, the whole body seems to have a cycle of fluorescent halo.

The two have never seen each other since the last time erotic drug incident. It seems that after many years of separation,they are getting farther and farther apart.

Bai Zihua gazed at her forehead, suddenly thought of last time he lost his temper made his heart skipped a beat.

He recalled at the Immortal Jade pool when Heng Shuang sword was uncontrollably inserted into her body, and the moment he saw the scars on her face, he vowed to himself that in this life even death he would never hurt her again, but he once again violate his oath. 

Gently closed his eyes, he thought he knew what to do, but turned out he didn't know at all. Emotion and reason are mixed up could not separate from each other. A cold Bai Zihua is standing in the front, and another Bai Zihua is sighing from behind.

He knew she has left the Cloud Palace for quite some time. He briefly thought, the world is so big but she has nowhere to go. He took a guess that she probably be here, and as expected, that year when she traveled with him to earn experience, they came back here once. 

He didn't know the reason he was looking for her for. Is it because Mo Bingxian? Or is it because in two days the Immortal Realm is about to launch the attack? He still hasn't regained his power yet, Mo Bingxian worried that he would be in danger and several times asking him to go back. But how could he shake his hand and leave, obviously all this is his responsibility.

Back then if he had thought more of her, he'd had noticed it when she was determined to steal god artifacts. He'd had found out ahead of time before she was banished to the salvage of wilderness. He'd had prevented Tangbao from being killed, perhaps everything would be different. 

Even though, things have gone too far, caused the death of so many people, he never felt like he made a wrong decision to take her as his apprentice, covered up for her and sealed the demon power in her body, received the soul-killing nail punishment on her behalf.

"Why did you want to see me?" Hua Qiangu's voice was chilled to the bone.

After a long silence, Bai Zihua said: "The Immortal Realm will launch attack in two days."

"I know, so what? It's just like an egg trying to crush a stone, overestimated own's capabilities. Since they are desperate for death, I'll fulfill them. Aren't you here this time is to beg for mercy for them?"

Bai Zihua looked at her but did not say anything.

Hua Qiangu coldly sneered, and there's a hint of ambiguity in her tone: "Don't tell me, because you are worried about me."

Bai Zihua's face stiff for a moment: "Of course not."

"It means you are here wanted to ask me to release people again? Or not widely killing them? Then the one you should stop is the people from the Immortal Realm.

Bai Zihua took a deep sighed: "Put everything down and stop being a demon god, can you?"

Hua Qiangu looked at him as if she was hearing a big joke. Thing has come to this point, how could there be a way back? Even she knew it, her heart still soft for a moment. she asked with a bitter smiled: "What is the difference between being a demon god or not. Being a demon god, you wanted to kill me. If I don't do it, are you willing to take me away?"

"I will not kill you. Let go of everything, and go back to Changliu seafloor with me."

Hua Qiangu laughed out loud: "You're still trying to pin me down in that place forever. Bai Zihua, you're already become a waste, why would I listen to you? Let me tell you, I Will Not!"

Hua Qiangu swept her long sleeves and suddenly got up. She walked two steps closer to him and said: "But …how about we make a deal? You take me away, I'll not be the demon god anymore, only accompany you, only for you. You not only can save lives but also atone the sin, only need to pay with a small price, why don't you agree to it? As an honorable master of Changliu, don't you like to sacrifice yourself for the world?"

Staring at his face in such close distance, hoping to see only the slightest of wavering in him, but in the end she was still disappointed. Bai Zihua slowly shook his head: "It's the only thing that will never be possible. What does it take to cool you down and willing to forgive? If you do all this just because of me……."

As he just raised his hand, Hua Qiangu has already blocked his moving point. She forced a smile and staggered back two steps.

How could she not know that there was something wrong with his sudden visit to her? He fully aware that she's still love him deeply, and wanted to redeem himself by commiting suicide in front of her. He also knew that as long as she's around, she will never let him die. By doing this, not only show his determination, but also deliberately pressure her. Bai Zihua, you are brilliant! Because I love you, I will never ever be able to win against you.

Hua Qiangu slowly turned around, too much gloom and sorrow poured out from her heart. She could taste the bloody sweetness in the throat, and tried to swallow it back in difficulty. She then gradually shook her head as if laughing at herself. In fact, today even if he agrees with her just for the sake of the world, for her not to be a demon god anymore, and willing to be with her, how could she be able to accept it? From the moment she became the demon god, everything could no longer turn back. It was just that she could not resist sound it out, could not resist wanted to ask, could not resist holding on to a little bit of expectation. After all, even for the sake of the world, still refused to compromise with her suggestion. Just let it be, after all there is no 'if' in this world……

As Bai Zihua watched Hua Qiangu's figure went farther away, his eyes slowly closed. He knew that he was too cruel, but there is no time to redeem it. This is the only thing he can do for her, he doesn't want to see her hands get bloody again.

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"Zhu Ran."

"En?" He was stunned to hear her soft voice calling to him. 

Hua Qiangu looking up lazily at the sky. Tomorrow is a big war: "Did you finish everything you want to do yet?"

"Almost, only the last one left." Because it is the most important, he rather keep it to the end.

"Very good, but I haven't completed anything yet." This is the agreement they made in the savage of wilderness.

"It's all thanks to your strength." He's been using her, but she doesn't mind at all. He only requested was do not hurt anybody else. Later on when she became the demon god, she let him made all decisions.

Hua Qiangu shook her head, and suddenly pulled his hand. It's covered with ugly scars, and missing a little finger. She remembered it was cut off by her.

"Does it hurt?" She suddenly felt a little sad. It was not easy for them to get out of the savage of wilderness, depending on each other and get to this point.

"It doesn't hurt." Zhu Ran's face became gentle, there is no more false smiles in it.

He suddenly felt the energy flowing into his body. He let go of Hua Qiangu's hand and slowly shook his head: "No need."

"You are not his match."

"It doesn't matter. Only this thing, I want to rely on my own strength." His ambitions, his desires and hopes, they are satisfied. The Six Realms in his hand are just like that. The only thing left is revenge. 

"You tell me, if Tang Bao meets me, will she blame me for killing Luo Shiyi? Will she ignore me?"

"No, she won't. No child is really angry with the parents."

"How about you?"

Zhu Ran did not speak, he stayed silent for a long time and finally stretched out his hands holding Hua Qiangu in his arms for the first time. This battle, they both are doomed to fail.

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In a small pavilion, Hua Qiangu was drinking alone under the moon. This is the first time she drinks in many years, just the smell of wine alone had made her drowsy. Suddenly she remembered the dreams she had made when she was drunk the Worry Free wine. Recalled the words Bai Zihua talked to her: in the future whether you have a powerful eagle wings, or the ability of the sun, you must remember your feelings when you are just a small stone, and bring more benefits to the world.

It turned out, he had already foreseen this day, but still chose to believe in her that even with the greatest power, her heart would never change. But she let him down, she has changed after all.

She noticed someone is coming, looking up it was Mo Bingxian. She lay limp on the table, laughing and mumbling: "Why haven't you left yet? Is it still not enough? Take it then." She held Mo Bingxian's hand and demon power immediately rushed into his body.

Mo Bingxian dragged her up, carried a trace of heartache and hatred, incredibly said: "Do you really want to follow my method to save to revive Shuo Feng?" In just a few days her demon power has become scattered and chaotic, what exactly does she wanted to do?

Hua Qiangu nodded with her alluring smiled. With a look of intoxication, and her cheeks that always pale were filled with a touch of pink.

"I am so happy this time, he will have a face and maybe as handsome as you."

It's only a pity that he'll have to wait hundreds of years before he can be turned into a human form again. By that time, she won't be there to see it……

Mo Bingxian shook his head: "Why do you always trust people so credulously? You are clearly aware that my purpose here is to drain your strength, make you become weaker and then kill you.  What if this method is just the same as the woman before only to deceive you?

Hua Qiangu smile miserably: "Do you think I still have anything else to lose? Although you came with a purpose, I still could see you really care about me. You should leave now, I just used demon power to set up a screen barrier in your body, in the future, you won't have no choice anymore. Let go, go find the person you loved, just like you said, even if she is the same person she was, take good care of her. That's all I can repay you."

Mo Bingxian felt as if a knife stabbed to his heart. He's wrong, very wrong. He should not have come. He shouldn't have not listened to advice. What is worse, he shouldn't have looked into her memory, and understood her. At this moment, beside feeling distress for her, there's nothing else he can do.

He held her arms tightly and roared: "Repay? What did I do for you to repay me? You have suffered so much deception and hurt, how dare you repay me? How dare you treat me sincerely?

Hua Qiangu turned around, and unexpectedly was pulled in and hugged tightly in his arms.

"Don't be stupid, no one's heart broken is worthless. Forget him, let me take you away. Stop caring about this shitty world, don't be a demon god anymore, I will take you away……."

Hua Qiangu's nose turned sour, but she could shake her head: "Sorry, I'm sorry."

"Don't say sorry, you are not sorry for anyone, they did you wrong!"

He then held her face, and kissed her fiercely.

Hua Qiangu's eyes wide open in surprise, her brain was blank, and her limbs were completely paralyzed, only saw the face in front of her full of painful struggle. She wanted to push him away, but her whole body was numb and weak. That man's kiss was so fierce and forceful, and the cold temperature of her body began to rise. Alcohol anesthetized her brain, and the person's face in front of her suddenly turned into Bai Zihua. Once again, her heart felt like was being twisted by a knife, she responded passively, muttering in her mouth: "Shifu……"

Mo Bingxian felt as If being struck by lightning. Pressing her trembling body into the soft couch: "Damn it! I am not your shifu! Do you hear me, I am not him! You get a good look at me!" He firmly grasped her bewildered face, and continue kissing her. Floral fragrance mixed with wine aroma, the taste is so tempting.

Hua Qiangu's strained string that she had been held on for so long was completely broken. Why? Why is she so persistent? Why does she have to cling on with him and can't let go? If she didn't love him, she wouldn't fall into such a situation, and caused many deaths. Thing has already come to this point, but he would rather sacrifice the world than be with her. Does he really disgust her that much? But why is she still unwilling to give up? Why can't she let go of him? Being a demon god, she can do whatever she wants, why should she keep herself flawless for him? On what basis why should she forced by him?

Her eyes are blurred, she could not tell anymore whether the person in front of her is Bai Zihua or Mo Bingxian. She only knows that she felt so miserable, tired, and lonely. Everyone abandoned her, felt as if her dead heart was cut into a big hole, and the blood was dripping, she needs something to fill it in. Reached out her hands and held on to the little warmth in front of her tightly, like trying to grab life-saving straw.

The clothes peeled off from her shoulders, and the man passionately kiss and bite her on the neck, it felt like when Bai Zihua sucked her blood. Her breathing became fast, allowing an unfamiliar hand touched her body, little by little inviting her desires. She felt powerless, bend down and sighed gently.

All of a sudden, the surrounding temperature turned extremely cold, and overwhelming by the murderous air. Hua Qiangu opened her eyes from being drunk in a dream, looking at the man in the distance, her heart was like spit into half.

The time suddenly stopped, it's like going back to the beginning. He was her teacher, and she was still his disciple.

She fiercely turned over and push away Mo Bingxian, disregarded everything and chase after man.

Mo Bingxian hugged her tightly from behind, and his voice almost choked: "Don't go…"

Hua Qiangu with a face full of panic and confusion, exerted her strength to break away from him. She kept shaking her head and saying sorry.

Mo Bingxian stared at her back view, and hid her face behind her hands. He had no idea why he was like this. Is it for her or for demon power? He smiled in bitterness: "It was me who should say sorry….."

It was as if the time when she wanted to kill Ni Mantian and was discovered. She kept kowtowing in the courtyard, only wanted to ask for his forgiveness. She never panic like this before, but this time she knew she was doing something wrong.

Struggling to catch up with Bai Zihua's pace, even though he could hardly stagger to his feet.

Sorry, sorry, sorry……

She repeated it ten thousand times in her mind. Although she didn't know why she kept saying it and she did not need to talk to him, she only felt that she was wrong, very wrong.

Reaching out her hand to pull Bai Zihua's robs, she was like a child who was scared and confused.

Bai Zihua's complexion was pale and could hardly speak. His entire body was trembling, he turned around and gave her a hard slap in the face. Hua Qiangu did not dodge and waiting for it willingly as she fell apart on the ground.

Bai Zihua's chest fluctuated violently. Looking at her clothes in disorder, half of her frangnant shoulder half exposed. His hand stiff in air, pointed his finger at her. He wanted to say something but he was so angry that I couldn't say a word.

Hua Qiangu has never seen him this angry, his eyes were bloody red, like a suffocating strom. After going through a long cold war, who would have expected the confrontation break out at this moment. Is it because she didn't have self-respect and did improper thing with another man?

Bai Zihua only knew that his heart felt like being crushed into pieces and his head full of the intimate scene between the two. He brought her up and understood her better than anyone else. Even if she became the demon god, and bad-mouth by others, he still believed that she loves him deeply and would not be degenerate to such an absurd and promiscuous level. Tomorrow is a big battle,if he wasn't worried about her, he would not come to see her. If she really gives herself to Mo Bingxian, it doesn't need to wait for tomorrow, what awaiting is her corpse. She knows the consequences, but still acted so foolishly, and indulged in temporary joy. Did she really fell in love with that man?

The moment he saw all that, the great sorrow and anger surging inside him and in an instant completely swallowed up his heart, as if being slashed by a knife. The despair and powerlessness almost devoured his soul. He suddenly hates her, hates her did not live up to his expectations, hates her never understand his pains for her, hates her always makes him distress and worry about her, hates her for having men around her one after another. She didn't know that no one in the world could treat her better than him. But what he hates the most is himself. He hates himself for not being to redeem and no way to get her back. He hates himself for all the wrong reasons step by step forced her to be like this. He hates himself for making her heart- broken and in despair again and again.

And what I hate most at the moment is himself for losing all magical power, and can't stangle Mo Bingxian to death.

Hua Qiangu was kneeling in front of him with pleading look on her face and tears are almost falling. She knew she was wrong, she was wrong, she was wrong again.

"Shifu….." She could not help but called out the two words in low hoarse voice.

Bai Zihua was shock, only in a split second, all his defenses and disguises, principles and persistence, completely collapsed.

The love that has been growing in his heart that he already knew but never dare to face and reveal it, and now is beyond any help has topple the mountains and overturn the seas.

Hua Qiangu didn't even have time reacted yet, the person in front of her suddenly leaned down and kissed her.

A murky sky over a dark earth.

That lips were familiar to her and what she longed for. But this time felt somewhat different from the past, it was burning hot and warm with boundless anger and resentment. Hua Qiangu lost all the power to think, she kneeled on the ground and cling to him powerlessly, gasp for breath rapidly, let him invade and occupy without a bit of gentleness.

This moment, she has been waiting for thousands of years.

Bai Zihua firmly locked her in his arms, seizing the fragrance of flowers and wine in her mouth. The thought of her kissing other men just now, the kiss became more violent, nip on her lips fiercely until it bleed. Feeling salty taste in his mouth only then did he realized that he had bitten her lips. Feeling heartache for you, he then sofen down.

The soft tip of the tongue was lingering in her mouth as his mind has become blurred. Bai Zihua thought to himself, if this just a dream, he prefers to live in this dream forever and never wake up. If this is wrong, he only wishes to keep continues with this wrong. 

This kiss is like punishment and bestowal at the same time. When he finally managed to find his reason and let go of her slowly, everything has already become irreparable.

He staggered back a few steps, closed his eyes with astonishment. He then looked up in desperation, did not want to see her. Hua Qiangu was also unbelievably collapse to the ground, for a long time could not utter a word. 

She has never seen such a painful, remorseful, and fear look on Bai Zihua's face before. It was like doing the world's most unforgivable thing.

She also did not recovered from what had just happened. She still couldn't figure out why did Bai Zihua do that? But one thing she knows this is the most disgraceful thing for him. In his innermost, it will completely destroy him.

"Don't, don't be afraid…."

Hua Qiangu stood up shakily like a broken puppet.

Bai Zihua slowly took a step back, and the entire face was bloodless. On the verge of collapse at any time.

What did he just do?

"Don't be afraid…." Hua Qiangu took another shaky step forward, gritting her teeth as she put her hand up at him, a strong purple glow flashed at her fingertips.

Bai Zihua immediately understood what she wanted to do, he took a quick step back. The then spoke in an angry growling sound: "Stop erasing my memory!"

How dare she! How dare she makes him forget again again!

Yes, he did it! He did the wrong thing! So what! He will never use this forgetting method to escape!

Bai Zihua took a deep breath, he could only felt severe pain all over his body, especially on his left arm. A piercing sensation pain, almost made him faint. Big drop of cold sweat fell down from his forehead while he tire to exert all the strength to grab his wrist.

Hua Qiangu noticed that he was cramping with pain. She quickly came forward in flustered, but was pushed away by him.

"Go away…." he spat out word by word with gritting teeth. He has never felt such pain before, and even the heart was twitching with pain. Hua Qianu once again was scared by the expression on his face, no longer care about anything tightly pulled his hand in.

"I told you to go away!"

A sounds of fabric ripping, accompanied by Bai Zihua's angry rebuke. Hua Qiangu was dumb founded, took in deep breath of cold air, looking at his arm in complete disbelief.

What is that?

The surrounding was in complete quiet, only the two people's breath could be heard. Hua Qiangu took a step forward blankly.

Bai Zihua used another sleeve to cover the exposed arm with confusion and despair: "Don't look…"

Don't look…..

Hua Qiangu took two steps back as she took a deep breath and slowly closed her eyes.

How could that be? How could that be?

Feeling like a thunderbolt from a clear sky, creaking her brain. She did not see it wrong, it is indeed the scar from Unfeeling Pool. how could he has such a big frightful red scar? How could he have it? How could it be possible? When was it?

"Why….."  She raised her hand and touched her own lips. It all happened too fast and too suddenly, how can she be able to believe it? But when she saw that scar, she finally understood everything. Recalling that night, when he was in a confused state of mind, he kissed he, and repeatedly whispered her name.

It turned out….

He has loved her all along.

The secret that Bai Zihua had been hidden for a long time was completely revealed and invisible under her gaze, tt was an indescribable embarrassment and shame for him.

There is indeed a scar left by water from Unfeeling pool on his arm. At first, he didn't know how it happened. When senior sect brother threw water on him, he didn't feel anything at all. Later on he discovered that there was a faint red mark left behind. Until the scar is became deeper day by day only then did he understand…. He was shocked at that time, but he was too confident about himself. It was not until just now emotion was aroused, the scar accompanied by pain of years later, finally caused him to completely defeat in front of her.

Bai Zihua's long hair bend down, trembling all over his body, endured a frustration that he's never experienced in his life.

That's right, he loves her from a long time ago even himself didn't know when it started. He didn't realize it from his heart, senses, or feelings, only his body didn't lie leaving a little bit of proof behind.  

However, he's an insensitive and heartless person. Falling in love and then what? Not to mention falling in love with someone he shouldn't.

Hua Qiangu wanted to cry out. There is a trace of excitement and joy in her eyes, but overshadowed by anger and pain. Why did it become like this? He actually loves her, but how could he have always been so cruel and heartless even if he had fallen in love with her?

Her purple eyes staring at him, reaching out her hand to touch his scar, wanted to slow down his pain, but all these movement only made Bai Zihua became more ashamed and angry. 

He always said she was wrong, but in fact, he's the one who is the most wrong. How could he fall in love with her?

Shaking back two steps, he suddenly pulled out the sword, without hesitation, cut off his left hand. The scar along with the flesh was mercilessly cut deep into the bone by him, revealing the white bone.

Time stood still.

Hua Qiangu was stunned by all the sudden happenings in front of you. Blood splashed on her robes, brightly red like peach blossoms painting.

The glimmer of joy that has just emerged, the heart that just started to beat again, unexpectedly was gouged out by him just like this and once again smashed into pieces….. "How could it be like that?"

She took two steps back while muttering. Is in love with her making him feel ashamed and disdained? That was why he would not hesitate to get rid of the only proof to prove his love even if harming himself.

"How could you be like this?" Two drops of bloody tears falling on her face. The big and empty eyes staring at him, and something in her body seemed to be about to explode.

Bai Zihua's whole body was trembling with pain as he clenched his teeth.

That scar meant nothing, and represented nothing! It's not important whether he loves  her or not? They can't be together, can never be together!

Noticing the murderous air surging from Hua Qiangu spreading everywhere, he only looked at her coldly. His deepest secret which buried in the depth of his heart was revealed just like this, with his desperation and anger. He always hurts her with the sword, but everytime he stabbed her, it felt like he was hurting himself. But this time, he knew it hurts her heart more than when he stabbed her in the past. He did such a crazy and wayward act, only wanted to make her wake up and let himself wake up as well.

Hua Qiangu's hands were clenched into fists. Gritting her teeth in anger as she took two steps back. In this life, no matter when, even when Tangbao died, she did not feel that she hated him so much like this time.

It'd be fine if he has never loved her. But how could he throw her heart on the ground and trample it when she finally knows that he is in love with her? She's never blamed him for all the things he had done before, but now there's only resentment left. There's no more rational, the hatred and anger on her face has turned into an extremely cold evil demonic. 

Bai Zihua, you will regret it!

A powerful roar shocking the sky, it was like venting all her pain and resentment. Hua Qiangu was like a silver thread, in the blink of an eye disappeared into the sky.

Bai Zihua collapsed on the ground, with trembling hand still holding his left arm, the blood flowing down like Hua Qiangu's second time tears.

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