Hiota no Kanojo ga Ore no Motteru Eroge ni Kyoumi Shinshin Nanda ga…… Volume 1 Chapter 4 part6

“…………Odagiri-kun”

“……W-Wait, Misaki-san……I can’t eat anymore……”

“……Eh?”

The moment he was muttering, he opened his eyes.

A small park stained in the evening glow. Sprawled at the corner of the bench, Kazuma was instantaneously blinking his eyes.

(……Eh? Why am I here……?)

When he hazily clearing up from drowsiness, he could hear Honoka’s voice from the side.

“……Are you awake?”

“Eh……? M-Misaki-san?”

Gently brushing his forehead with a finger, Honoka was starring at Kazuma’s face directly above.

And there is something very soft behind Kazuma’s head who was lying down.

“Uwaa!? I-I-I-I’m──s-s-sorr……!”

The moment he jumped up noticing she is giving him a lap pillow, he had a feeling of discomfort as if his stomach had being crushed and held down his mouth.

“M-My stomach………..it hurts…….”

It’s a feeling as if food was clogged with no gap in the intestine. He had eat too much.

“S-Sorry Misaki-san……..I…….was sleeping……..on your…….”

It’s fine……..Tell me, don’t you have a lack of sleep? You have dark circles under your eyes.”

Sitting beside him, Honoka gently wiped away Kazuma’s sweat.

After leaving the coffee shop, Kazuma and Honoka took the train and headed to the ramen shop that Honoka wanted to go.

It seems like she often visited this shop with her family since young. The store couple treat Honoka like their daughter, Honoka was also showing a more friendly manner in front of them,than her usual self.

Then, Honoka eat the ramen as she called [lunch] as well as the fried rice that the auntie made completely till there is nothing left. Her eating manner was even applauded by the customers who were also eating in the shop.

However, Honoka’s appetite was not done. After leaving the store, the both of them went straight to the buck-wheat noodle store, looked at a confectionery store​, walked into a cake shop and ate bread while walking.

Every store that they went, were her favorite store that Honoka often went.

As a matter of fact, every food that she recommend on the menu were surprisingly delicious, making Kazuma deeply moved.

Besides. Kazuma has a limited stomach when he was eating the first pancake in the first place, that remaining strength of just accompanying her is ruining himself by the extravagance of foods, is no longer there.

In the end, for Kazuma’s sake whom overeating halfway and couldn’t move, the both of them had decided to take a break in this park.

Then due to the curse of lack of sleep and overeating, Kazuma had fallen asleep right there.

“But………….you should not have to force yourself to eat the same food as me.”

“Yeah……you’re right about that though……”

n fact, Honoka had noticed that Kazuma is already full when they were halfway through but he repeatedly told her not to mind him. As well as she telling him that they can home if he wants.

Nevertheless, the one who said let’s go on and insisted on eating was none other than Kazuma himself.

The reason was──

“But I also,  want to know……the things that Misaki-san likes.”
The things that Misaki-san had done for him up till now, Kazuma wants to do so for her as well. That’s the [goal] that Kazuma had for today’s date.

Because he was very happy when Misaki-san told him that she would play eroge together with him. This time, he would like for Honoka to be that happy as well. For that reason, he thought the date should not end by just the both of them shopping around.

It seems that kind of feeling that Kazuma had was being handed down to Honoka. Narrowing her eyes a little, Honoka muttered.

“…………Thank you, Odagiri-kun.”

“……Un. I’m pleased if you are too.”

Listening to Kazuma’s words, Honoka deepened her smile.

Like a flower bud blooming, her expression was pale but gentle. Although she was cool in public, but that is the only face she showed in front of Kazuma.

…….It’s about time. With that mind, Kazuma straightened his posture.

“……Misaki-san.”

Calling out her name, Kazuma stood up, walking right up to her front, looked her straight in the face.

Assuming something from Kazuma’s expression, Honoka copied him and stood up too.

“Misaki-san. There is something I need to tell you.”

“……Yes?”

“──I’m sorry for what I have done up till now!”

Powerful. With all his sincerity, Kazuma deeply lowered his head.

“……O-Odagiri-kun…….?”

“Sorry, Misaki-san, for making you feel bad all this time.”

“……About?”

“Misaki-san, in the past, you had been molested……despite that……forcing a girl who has been molested to play an eroge that is about molesters, I think you feel disgusted about it. And yet, I didn’t notice that I’m have been doing that to you for all this time. That’s why, I’m sorry. Really sorry.”

While bowing, he repeated “sorry” over and over again.

He intend to remain like that until Honoka forgives him. Even if knelling down on the ground helps. Probably because what I had done to her was insensible.

“But please listen. You might not listen to me because I have the eroge and everything…….but I really don’t think of doing those kind of things to a girl……..to Misaki-san. You might not understand this, but to me, fiction and delusion are totally different from reality…….but because it’s not a reality, it’s something I dare to imagine rather…….”

“……I know, Odagiri-kun. That’s who you are. That’s because you saved me that back then.”

“And that is more than enough” is what Honoka replied.

His eyes involuntarily turned red. Although Kazuma is troubled about asking her to believe him, but Honoka has always understood and believe in him.

“….True, I did remembered a little about the past along with the feelings I had, but that is it. I don’t hate playing those kind of games.”

“……Misaki-san”

He slowly raised his face. As their eyes met, Honoka smiled with embarrassment.

“Erm…….that’s why, let’s play it again, together. Although I failed the last time, but I will try my best again──”

“Sorry, Misaki-san.  Before that, there is something I need to check with you about something……..Misaki-san, is it fun playing eroge?”

“Eh…..?”

Honoka stared blankly at Kazuma, as if to say ” I don’t understand why you ask that”.

“That’s…….it’s fine. If I can stay beside Odagiri-kun, it’s is entertaining enough for me, don’t mind me, Odagiri-kun do what you like──”

“That’s not it, Misaki-san.”

Interrupting her, Kazuma took a deep breath.

“…………Hey, Misaki-san. I love eroge.”

“I know──”

“So, I always thought that Misaki-san would like to enjoy playing eroge as well.”

That’s a feeling that continued to burn in Kazuma’s chest until today.

It was the [real intention] of not being aware of the days spend with [her].

“Misaki-san, do you remember what I said when we attended school together? “The merit of eroge is not eroticism”. I don’t play eroge for the purpose of eroticism.

“I remember that, but…….”

“At that time, I was unable to say it clearly………but eroge is really interesting. How to say this, the people who are making on the side, has feel of liberty……..Not in a good or bad meaning, but a feeling of “anything is fine”. Even the story, setting, character and theme song……..I feel like the people who made it were cramming in self-indulgence were thinking “I think it’s interesting”. That’s why there are others like full throttle chuunibyou battle, games that put grotesque​ as the main genre than eroticism, besides, there are also genre about rape which is my favorite…….Those may not be accepted with the majority, but that is why, other medium like movie, novel or consumer’s games can’t imitate it, probably because there is only [one of kind in the world] works are born……..”

……However, I think that such splendor did not properly get through to Honoka, probably. Because she has never touch the story, world view, character, voice actor’s acting and opening BGM at all.

She is just imitating the situation that came out of the erotic scene that came out from the game.

He has no intention of blaming her about that. Because Kazuma was happy about that behavior.

But due to that idea just simply came into his head, he had completely forgotten what is important for each of them.

“Misaki-san, I understand that you’re trying your best so that you can get closer to my liking, and I was happy that you said that you’re willing to play eroge in order to achieve that. But………But to me, eroge is not like that! It’s not just a [erotic catalog] ! It’s a story, a world any it’s my life! It does not matter what is my preference and ideals are! A more important is packed in the game!  Even thought you went out of your way to play eroge, you only see the erotic part, it’s a waste to skip the rest! What a waste, Misaki-san!”

Kazuma who is running out of breath, while he stared at Honoka who was taken aback.

But soon, her expression became cloudy.

“E-Erm…….I’m sorry, Odagiri-kun. I──”

“That’s why I noticed that [I also treat Misaki-san the same way].”

“Eh…..?”

Honoka was surprised and Kazuma received her gaze upfront.

“I too, was over conscious and in high spirits about [dating Misaki-san]. I didn’t look at who you are. If we are going out, if I am your boyfriend, I should have liked you more seriously in this relationship.”

The way Honoka is playing is called scene extraction. It’s like enjoying the erotic part of the recollection mode without playing the main story.

But playing that part will not make one understand the true merit of that eroge.

Looking at the opening with rising tension, troubling with the options, sometimes ended up in the instant death bad end, struggling against the SLG parts and the fighting parts, once you noticed, getting absorbed in the main story………..if you didn’t play it from the beginning, you won’t be able to feel the quality of the work and the character’s appeal.

And that is the same relationship between people.

Not skipping in the middle of the stage. Once you encounter [prologue] and if you don’t properly start from the top, then you will definitely won’t seriously fall in love with that person.

When Honoka confessed to him, Kazuma was too ecstatic at that time, and skipped the rest up till then. He had neglected the most important process of [liking] conquering her.

That’s why Kazuma have to tell Honoka today.

In order to reach the proper [ending] future from this mistaken [route] future.

No matter…….how painful his heart may be.

“……..Misaki-san.”

As he said that, Kazuma suddenly stop at right there. Placing is hands, bowing down and then said:

“──Sorry! Please…….please break up with me!”

…..At that moment, Honoka could not say anything. Not even a sound can be heard, a perfect silence.

But for Kazuma, he clearly knew that Honoka shuddered with shock.

“We will break up now…….then, let’s us start from the beginning!”

When he was playing eroge this morning, after looking at words [start from beginning] displayed on the title screen, Kazuma realized.

This is the “choice” that I should be choosing now.

“Even though you went out of your way to confess, up till now, even though you are devoted, I know it’s selfish to say such a thing! But, I don’t like it if this keeps up! Because I really want to be able to cherish Misaki-san…….!”

There might not need to have a break up. Even now, It is still possible to be with Misaki-san.

But as expected, Kazuma think that was useless.

Because when he left home, he had prepared beforehand.

Just like Honoka who is behaving like a heroine.

I too──want to be the protagonist.

If he want to keep going out with Honoka, their feelings will have a strain someday and his relationship with Honoka will definitely be destroyed.

Even if you forcibly advanced the story while making mistakes in your choices, there will be only a bad end at the end.

Because I really don’t want to end like that.

That’s why Kazuma lowered his head close enough for it to touch the ground, and continue to appeal for his will.

──After a long, silent period.

“……But. Nevertheless……I…..no”

Honoka took her time and finally opened her mouth.

“I thought that…….I always wanted to get along with Odagiri-kun. That’s why, when we agree to go out, I was really happy…….and yet……and yet….for it to end like that…….for us to break up…..such a thing…..such a thing……no……”

His heart was no doubt in pain. With extreme guilt and regret.

Nevertheless, Kazuma could only grit his teeth and stood there.

“I’m sorry, Misaki-san. I really feel bad for being this selfish! You can blame me or bear a grudge if you want……!”

“……Then, can you promise me one thing?”

“……Eh?”

Kazuma involuntarily raised his face.

“I clearly understood what Odagiri-kun wanted to say…….and what you thought of me. That’s why…..please. I also want to start from the beginning.”

Quietly bending over, Honoka gently held out her little finger in front of Kazuma and told him the word of [promise].

Kazuma nodded back, stretching out his little finger.

──And so, Kazuma and Honoka have returned to just being classmates.

Chapter end