Hiota no Kanojo ga Ore no Motteru Eroge ni Kyoumi Shinshin Nanda ga…… Volume 1 Chapter 4 part2

Then it finally approaches, the last day of Silver Week──

“……Haa”

With a yawn slipping out, his concentration was interrupted. When he turned away from the screen to look at the time, it’s already five o’clock in the morning. Is it about time for the sun to rise?

That night, after taking to Kazuha, Kazuma shut himself in his room and continuously replayed every handheld eroge that he had from the start to the beginning, both old and new series without a break.

……Although I did swear, I was by no means running away from reality.

It’s just that I thought of it when I was playing eroge for the first time.

Honoka has been thinking about what is Kazuma is thinking of when he is playing eroge up till now.

When she think about it, Honoka has never said anything about her thoughts towards eroge no matter which one she played. Which scene was good or bad,  which character she likes or dislike, even if it wasn’t an eroge, if you touch any product, there will be a reaction you will absolutely show.

Although it might be because Kazuma just missed the chance to asked her──but somehow, that was hindered.

That’s why Kazuma have decided to play the eroge that he have played with Honoka again.

When she was playing that──with Kazuma, what was Honoka thinking about? How did she feel about that?

Kazuma is doing that in order to know more even if it’s just a little bit.

However……

Over the next few days of playing eroge, as of the matter of understanding Honoka’s feelings, that’s a sad no. Rather, he feels like he is in a loss.

The only thing that Kazuma understood in these few days is probably himself.

Like I thought──I love eroge to death.

I know that this is not a hobby worth of praise. I know that the habit of a high school student playing eroge is a rule violation.

This is something I shouldn’t have done, I should be repenting, it’s not something I can say proudly.

Nevertheless.

Nevertheless, Kazuma couldn’t stop playing eroge. Can’t let go of it. Refuse to give it up.

Because eroge is so──so fascinating.

Even though he knows it’s wrong and bad, he can’t helped but to be engrossed by it.

……But what about Honoka?

The amusement of eroge. The fascination of eroge. It’s elegance. Kazuma wonders if he is able to tell Honoka about the eroge’s charms.

When he was considering it, Kazuma remembered when he was in middle school.

The first time when he got his first eroge.

And──a certain girl who made him fall in love with eroge.

When he was third year middle school, there was a girl who was already reading a book by herself.

She was alone because there was no one in the class who would speak to her. And because there is a rumor surrounding herself.

According to the rumors, “Her father was a scenario writer for eroge”.

At that time, Kazuma and most of people in the class probably doesn’t know what is this “eroge”.

It just that, in other words, it’s was understandable that it was something disgusting and offensive. That’s why everyone tried not to get involved with her.

However, no matter how people looked at her, she would always remain unfazed and look dignified.

Her eyes were indeed filled with determination, always looking forward.

I thought of talking with her.

I thought of becoming friends with her.

Thereupon, although I know I will be isolated from the surroundings, I still can’t stop myself regardless.

That’s why on that day──

“E-Erm! To tell you the truth, I……..want to play  that game called 『 eroge』!!”

The instant he was going home, they happened to coincidentally bump into each other at the gate and Kazuma, that right, called out to her.

……In the end, her reply was “why don’t you play it by yourself?”

To be honest, he was pretty overwhelmed. I was depressed thinking whether I was hated by her, and regretted talking to her.

But, after some time have passed, at the closing ceremony for the first semester.

Kazuma, who tried to go home, found an eroge firmly wrapped with a newspaper  that was thrust into his desk.

There was no confirmation.

However, I thought it was definitely her.

At that time, she gave Kazuma an answer who spoke out with courage.

That’s why, Kazuma have started to play eroge.

Once the summer holidays is over, let’s try and talk to her again, that’s was what he thought of doing.

However, in the end, that day didn’t arrive.

Opening ceremony of the second term. She didn’t come to school and attend lessons. According to the form teacher, it was decided that she was going to transfer at the end of the first semester.

She had completely disappeared before Kazuma’s eyes before he could talk about the things he wanted to ask her.

Up till now, Kazuma still doesn’t know whether his feelings towards her can be considered as love or not.

Then what about Honoka?

What on earth do I want to do with her?

He stared at the game screen in front of him. An erotic……er rather a good event CG was displayed where a number amount of tentacle was attacking the heroine on  screen.

……After playing eroge for several hours, there was something he strongly believe.

He truly believe that he is infatuated by this kind of assault-type situations──however, he had never thought of  wanting to put Honoka as the same position like the game.

It’s unforgivable for her to suffer and encounter such situations. This doesn’t apply to Honoka only but to Ruri, Yuna, Kauzha and anybody else.

Now, if anyone tries to question him, he can proudly replied that reality and fiction are completely different things.

However, it’s not enough just understanding it.

Think. What is the most desirable ending for me and Honoka?

That will be──Kazuma has fallen in love with Honoka.

Not with the ambiguous feeling he have now. Just like Honoka who thinks of Kazuma, all he needs to do is just to think of cherishing her.

No. I can’t do that. That’s what he thought.

In order to do that, what should I do?

While thinking, Kazuma was used the mouse and clicked his choice.

The next moment, the screen was dyed with red with special effect of blood.

“Ah……!”

It was the so-called instant death bad end. As he stared at the dimming screen, Kazuma was drained by saying “Aw man…”.

(Uwaa, I clicked the wrong option……what am I doing, I haven’t even save the game yet……)

It’s not even a complicated ramification of an AGV, because he intended to play it through the end, he thought that it won’t be necessary. That’s if he had just chose the right option.

(Oh well…… guess I will have to play it from the beginning once more……)

While sighing, Kazuma start-up the menu and returned to the title screen,

Suddenly, his hands stopped.

(…………Ah)

His eyes were attracted to the item on the screen, tracing back on that previous thought once again.

(…….I see)

Finally, I understand. What should I be doing now.

With resolve, Kazuma shut down his computer and stood up.

Before he knew it, the indication of morning was behind the curtains.

And the last day of his long holiday is finally about to raise it.

Chapter end