Daughter of the Emperor Volume 1 Chapter 5

She wondered out loud.In fact she seem quite take back at this.
Not that I can blame her.
I can understand how she feeling right now.
Your'e absolutely right .Sierra 's clothes are way too simple to be a royal nurse. Now when I say simple I'm being nice .In fact if some one called her out for being too plain I would have nothing to say to defend her .
I mean I know she hate unnecessary luxuries but I feel she tries too hard at being prudent that she made herself too simple it actually backfire and diminish her beauty. Tsk.
The princess Faylene looked surprise only for a moment then she started to think something .
Well, all her thoughts were reflected on her face.
I mean it was pretty obvious to everyone that she was judging no tasting me .
Am Ia dish  to be tasted ? I felt so offended I turn my head around .
So what if you're pretty ? Even if your'e pretty if you are also annoying it over!
I feel super annoyed right now!.

"Is that child her  royal highness ?"

Yeah! That right I'm the royal princess.
What I'm saying is that child is me.
The royal highness part made me cheeks burn but that definitely proves I am on an higher standing then the other princess.
But why is she gazing at me with such  heated eyes? It feels really burdensome .
Look , I'm only a three month old wah wah baby . I honestly don't why you have to gaze at me with such a feverish glazed eyes.What is wrong with this girl?

"yes, this is her royal highness"

Sierra bite down on her lips and  just barely replied . Just looking at her I could tell she really regretted revealing my identity to this princess.
yup.
I think I figure out why.
To reveal a defenseless baby to a hostile woman who has a deep grudge against the child father is quite the ...... thing to do .Yup.

"Hand her over .I want to try holding her one time."

What?!
I was so shocked I forgot to keep sucking on my pacifier .
What did this crazy hag say? Yes?  Do you even know me?
I think this is our first time we met yes?
HEY! Even my own birth father never held me .The only one who can hold me is Sierra !

"That ...."

Sierra clearly looked  uncomfortable .
Turn her down. Turn her down !
If you're going to hand me over I'm gonna sulk .
SOB SOB
Damn! I feel so bitter how can I live?
I know  this guy and that guy and even me held babies but now that it happened to me I hate it.
If it was a familiar face that I saw at least a couple times I would understand but that woman just saw me for the first time!

"Why? Do you think we will hurt her ?''

The princess pressured my nanny . That damm...!
No. I don't want to go.I hate that woman!
I grabbed onto sierra's clothes . No Mommy . If you send me I will cry.
I will cry!
In that woman eyes there something similar to a animosity !
This is not a lie I'm making up because I don't want to go but in those green eyes of her there really is different type of enmity  .
It was so blatant that it felt burdensome . It was that kind of hostility!
Fuck this.
Why do I have to get this kind of look just because I was unlucky to get the wrong father ?!
I feel It started out good with  my first time walk outside but  how did it ended up with me rolling down a cliff!
Don't hand me over! No, Don't hand me over!

"PriPrincess stop twisting around."

"Wahhhinnnn~"

Finally for the first time since I was born I burst loudly into tears.
I hate ! I hate this woman!
I don't know why she sprayed herself with this perfume but I hated this strong rose scent . The thick make up she was wearing and long sharp nails she wasn't trimming I really hated everything.

"Shut up! Can't you keep that mouth shut!"

Have you ever heard of a baby shutting up because it was told to?!
I hate you!
I want to cry . No . I'm already crying .
From my eyes tears are tirelessly running down.
It to the point I can't see the front anymore. I was just kicking up a fuss with all the energy I had with my mouth opened crying with all my might .
Ah, now I know why babies cry so vigorously . It the only way they can display their displeasure. I am such a weak existence .I can't even crawl so I can't even go away by myself!
Also unlike Serira her body was so thin I couldn't rub myself against her. She was too hard.
I hate it here!

"Wahinnnn~"

"It so noisy ! why is it so loud?"

All kids are like that.
sigh , don't raise any .
Serira fidgeted next to me and Elaine looked at me with surprised eyes .
Yes, I know .
you guys never seen me like this right? It the first for me too.
I am  crying like this  for the first time.
But I hated it to the point I cried!

"WAh~~~~"

You think she was a normal person who would give up  by now but I don't know where she learned it but princess  Faylene  grabbed my body tightly and didn't let go. In this way my wrist and hips were in great pain.
It hurts! you don't even know how to hold a child?!

"Whose attitude do you take after? if someone saw this they would think I was doing something bad to you!"

Your face is a horror , you old lady.

"Wahinnn~"

Damm, some one help me!
Seriously it look like she would drop me soon the way I was struggling about while giving it my all when I hear a familiar voice drop from above.

"What going on?''

The voice was so familiar .I turn my face wet with tears  and look through blurry eyes.

ah, It da..daddy!
My eyes grew round like saucers and at the same time the body holding me grew stiff.
With the emperor entrance the whole atmosphere as if splashed with cold water immediately cooled down  .Unfortunately while the chaos was going on it happen exactly right under the hallway he was passing by .I felt so taken back I shut my mouth. Of course the hallway was away from this spot but it wasn't far enough for him not to see anything.
Princess Faylene instantly paled and lift her face. Caitel met her eyes and sneered. It was his usual grin he gave that suggested he look at everyone and considered them all  bugs.

"I greet the one who has touched Evangelium ."

It mean to hear good news ,and to the emperor who has heard the voice of god  male or female must repeat this saying to the emperor of Agrigent.
It quite scary sight to behold a blue faced blue haired woman shaking with her head bow  down.
After my dad appear I stop crying but I was sniffling .

"May you  reach evangelium."

I don't know if it because Serra a citizen but her greeting was quite different.
As I grow up I will slowly learn all the small differences but I wanted to know right now .
Why?
Unfortunately this was not a good situation to satisfy my curiosity . Slowly the emperor came down the stairs outside and gaze at us with a crooked posture , I guess so far  i just thought of my dad as the crazy bastard  so  I was mistaken that the animosity he gave off was his normal  self. I was wrong the animosity he gave off now was much larger then what I felt in the room and weighted down the atmosphere.

"Can someone explain to me why the daughter was crying?"

Whose your daughter? Oh yeah , I am.
I want to cry in protest I'm not. You always called me as if  you're talking about some one else's daughter . Are you trying to show off your ignorance ? If not please change the way you talk about me .
As usual no one knew how I  felt  so I just sniffle as I sucked on my thumb. When I was making myself busy crying my lovely pacifier went by itself somewhere. Where did it go , my pacifier .
Pacifier, big sister is sorry .Where did you go?

"What ....what happen was ......"

The princess put more strength in her grip and my torso starting hurting in pain. Ow! Seriously!
I really want to cry out loud but daddy was daddy so I couldn't .
He will kill me if I cry .
The survival  instinct I didn't know I had was telling me this .
That mean bastard . I had to satisfied myself with just burrowing my forehead and looking longingly at Serira . At that moment I met his eyes.
Huh? Why are you laughing ?
I didn't know what this crazy guy would do so I  made a face.
What? What going on?
The guy  who always sneered at me was giving me a genuine smile .Wow his beauty is to die for .It blatant that god made a mistake when balancing  his assets . How else can a person have everything except personality .Hey ,Can you tell me ?

"Come here "

Caitel spread his hands toward me .
I was momentarily left at two crossroads .
Was it crazy woman or a crazy dad ?
It was just a moment but  my thoughts really did fall into chaos .
Ah , I guess you're better then this woman griping my torso so tightly it felt like she was tearing it off. I quickly let out my hands.
I guess since he was a crazy bastard no, a emperor princess Faylene gave me up easily . What else can she do ? I guess it was his first time holding me because his posture was awkward but I was finally able to stop sniffling .Now that my torso is free from pulling it feel so much better.
Ah. This is a real problem.
Just because I see you a couple times I got really used to you  .
sniff sniff sniff.
Your scent is familiar . Damm.
He watched me get comfortable in his arm. I raise my head and look into his eyes then I smile cheerfully .
I'm not bribing you okay.I'm not!
.......I just want to survive okay.
I don't know if he understood my  struggle to live but he smiled back at me .It was as gentle as the spring breeze .Well it instantly turn cold again.

Are you the man of a thousand mask?  Seriously do you really own a thousand mask?
How can a person just suddenly switch emotions that fast. We should break up!
I can't continue familial ties with a fickle guy like you!
But I guess I cant right?
Damm I'm screwed
Anyways that fierce face was not towards me but at the shivering  princess Faylene.
Ah I feel she looks pitiful  now .Earlier I hated her to the bone yet I didn't want to throw her alive in front of a crazy bastard so I felt complicated.
So who told you to hold me?

"Who are you?"

It was just one word.He was a man of few words but he was shorter in front of that princess. I guess it would be so .I mean what could he have to say to her that require longer sentences?

"I am princess Segista from Praezia your grace"

"No not that name."

He twisted his lips .It was not a genuine smile from pleasure nor his usual sneer .Something that twisted your inside and made your skin rise came from the bottom of my stomach .

"I want to know the name you received when I shoved you in the harem . I don't care for the name you use in the past."

Wow you sadist .
The princess who was griping her dress turn white. Now I'm starting to feel sorry for her .
I think I know how she feels .
Yup it scary .I'm scare too.
True currently it the princess in that place but there no guarantee I  wouldn't be there in her place someday. I pulled his clothes back.
Hey , dad with this I'm okay now so how about we just  let  her off  around now?

"Faylene"

At that moment the maid behind the princess broke the silence .

"It princess Faylene."

Caitel's face instantly froze . His hostility doubled  .In this atmosphere it was hard to breath so I wanted yo cry but damm!
Because of this dad in front of me nothing is going well today .
I finally just scrunched up my face and whimpered .
Hgh, I hate this! Things like this!

'Who are you to step in front of me?''

It was unnecessarily aggressive  words .I guess he doesn't know  the word mercy .

"Do you think someone like you can interfere in a place like this?"

The maid immediately went on her knees . Then she shouted as if she was screaming .
That pitiful sight shocked me.

"I committed a deathly crime! Please spare my life! I beg of you! I'm sorry!"

I had no connection to this incident but even I felt sorry for the sobbing maid who was screeching .
She just wanted to protect her mistress......If it was me I would have forgiven her no matter what but unfortunately the one who caught her was a crazy lunatic .

"Drag her away."

Everyone held their breath at his cold words .Of course I held my breath back too.
He didn't have a ounce of mercy in him.
I heard  the only medicine for a  crazy guy like him is a beating but since there no around who would beat the emperor up  so there no cure for you . There is no cure .

"This is the first time I saw our princess cry."

So are you going to kill me ?

"Where her toy ?"

What toy? Unfortunately he wasn't asking me so I couldn't answer.

"Yes?"

Serira look surprise as  he look at her however he look pretty calm in comparison.

"Toy .The one she always chewing."

That not a toy but a pacifier my friend.
Aka  binky
It even has a nickname and is a friend to all babies .
Your'e a dad and you don't know that?
ugh, seriously!

"Ah it ..."

Serrira who was baffled look around and found it near the spot the princess stood .
ah , it  'durity '! ( T/N It baby talk  for dirty)
How can I put it back in my mouth ! 
The emperor must have agreed with me .

"Toss it"

As soon as she picked it up he was ordering her to throw it away.
Serria couldn't bring herself to just throw it away on the floor  so she tugged it away in her arms.
Since I  lack  a pacifier I just made do by sucking on my thumb .
Suck suck suck
ah , it my finger but it salty .

"She cried so vigorously "

Yes , Thank you for your acknowledgment , So can you let me go free to my nanny ?
My wishes were ignored as usual , the emperor looked down at the princess  while holding me.
She was deathly still with her head lowered .
Ha~ , she so pitiful .

                                                                                                                                                                   
the girl with a thousand masks

 refers poetically to the mask of faces that actors wear - while expressing emotions that are not their own, the mask they wear (their acting)

I think it similar to Man of a Thousand Faces

Lon Chaney

A pacifier (American English) or dummy (British English) and (Australian English), also known as a binky, soother (Canadian English), teether or Dodie is a rubber, plastic or silicone nipple given to an infant to suck upon. In its standard appearance it has a teat, mouth shield, and handle.

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