I'm a 19 years old high school suffering pleb who's soon-to-be student.

I never had a go at writing so this may not turn out that well but at least I can try.

I was born in small city of Leskovac in Serbia at 31. July 2000.

There's not much that I can say about myself except that as a child I had a vivid and fun life straight outta some fantasy novel where mc gets to play with a lot of girls since he was a kid. Yeah, that's how it was when i had 3-4 years and it lasted until I started going to school (damn school always ruining fun).

After that, everything changed. From cheerful and happy little pest I changed to a nerd who always gave his all to get best grades which made me a sh*t of society ever since 2nd grade of elementary school. Big influence that made me turn out like that was my father who had best intentions towards me but did it the wrong way.

As a little brat I, of course, had no way to know that I'd turn into something which won't be fun and I'd almost be left with no friends except for the few guys from my vicinity. Contrary to that, my mother always supported me even when 'The whole World was against me' - of course figuratively only, but the feeling was the same to me at least. She is only person I respect from the depths of my heart and soul.

Lucky or unlucky me, my parents had to travel on a business trip to Germany in 2011 and that year I had another 'plot twist' of life. Since there was nobody to order me around and tell me what to do I had a freedom and I used it all the way. And I mean literally all the way.

The aftermath of that sheer freedom is that now I have a lot of knowledge about various things - from the worst fetishes, killing and who knows what is there in that pit all the way to joyful discoveries and experiences.

As stupid as it may sound, I'm deeply thankful to events that took place then, because they changed me thoroughly.

My way of thinking, my awareness, perception of reality, confidence and of course imagination and then got me back on the road of becoming significantly better person than what I was supposed to.

There are a few things I love the most and those few are: anime, manga, novels, games, programming, day-dreaming, *ahem* erotic stuff *ahem*, romance ( a specific type, not the ordinary one, you'll see details about it bellow ) and most important - freedom.

Enough self-depiction, time for the main thing.

This is my first go at writing a novel so I'm not sure how it'd turn out but since I've got an inspiration about what I'd like to write, it woke something up within me and made me give it a try, so I'm eager to see how it'd go.

Since I remember, from very long ago, I was always different than others around me and I never genuinely felt that the place I'm at is where I truly belong.

I always had a tendency to daydream and never, not even once felt like I can honestly tell what I think to someone without being too direct or afraid to hurt their 'gentle feelings'.

Usually, I'd just refrain from talking more than necessary and I guess that's the reason that made me screw off real world and create my own where I can open up and let my mind and soul flow without even a slightest bit of restrain or worry.

There are some of the most intriguing topics that make me think deeply again and again without reaching to the satisfactory answer, well it's not only one or two as there are several:

- Universe.

I like thinking about boundless and unrestrained universe with mysteries and possibilities that don't go by common sense. It makes my blood boil.

Every. Single. Frickin'. Time.

- Emotions.

Ah yes, although I never had 'real' connections with those but somehow I can understand emotions of other people even if they don't speak about them. Strange isn't it? But it's a good thing.

I think that this is due to constriction of my own, while reading countless of works that feature them gave a certain sense how people feel like in certain situations, but who knows.

- Power and Fights.

Yaaa. Regardless of what genre they belong to - Martial Arts, Fantasy, Magic, all of 'em belong here.

I've always loved molding letters into images when I read any work and by far I came to conclusion that regardless of what kind of confrontation it is, I always like it (especially the ones in bed, they are the best xD).

- Romance.

I never had genuine one but I long for true love, like finding your twin star/ soulmate or something similar.

There are more, but honestly I'm too lazy to write them and I don't want to leave the impression that I'm eccentric self-conscious bastard who likes to brag about himself and has no life (although it's partly true).

"If that's so, why did you write all that shit above?"

Because I never had the chance to tell anyone about how I feel so and then the thought came like "Bam~"; might as well write here about it. That's all.

Ahh, finally I came here to the point I've always dreamed about.

Since ancient times of my sorrowful existence - from birth, I always wanted to share my thoughts with others and the first way I thought of how to do it was through a game.

Yep, that's the reason why I wanted to learn programming from 11yo kiddo who swears like cowboy on the internet.

It may seem silly but, to my surprise, it brought me all the way here today. Thanks to that I can do all kinds of things I could never imagine as a kiddo for example at present I can make a simpler game in Unreal Engine 4 and I've already made one with our team at Global Game Jam 2019 in unity (It's full of glitches that you can't even play it, and we made it hard as hell lel, good times).

After knowing how difficult it is (sad story T_T) I figured out that maybe a novel is a better idea so, as you guessed, that's how this work got to see the day.

I honestly hope that you would enjoy reading it and I'm really sorry for those who had to read all of that above and once again thank you with all my heart.

Also I have to warn everyone as much as I know English It's not my native language, therefore there may be some grammatically incorrect sentences or strange-sounding phrases.

Sorry for that in advance and if you've got any suggestion to how I can improve some part of my work, feel free to suggest it.