Game Loading Chapter 192-193

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Sure enough, it was a dream. Something that couldn't be done in reality was real here.

It was understandable. After watching Xie Xi's erased memories, forget J and Little Jiang, even Big Jiang wanted to kill himself.

Therefore, in J's dream, he would no longer let Xie Xi encounter this 'slag man' in order to prevent Xie Xi from being hurt.

In the dream, J probably still wasn't willing to accept it and also felt a bit uneasy, so he had Big Jiang disappear forever.

Even if there was the next reincarnation, he had to wait until he grew old enough to do things. J and Xie Xi were already locked to death. Forget an iron shovel, he didn't want to make a gap for even a diamond to drill in.

Jiang Xie saw the news and said, "It is unfortunate. He was such a young general."

Xie Xi, "…" If it was unfortunate then don't kill people!

Jiang Xie leaned over and kissed him. "Why do you keep staring at him?"

Xie Xi followed his thoughts. "He looks so much like you."

Jiang Xie immediately became full of smiles and his voice was very gentle. "Don't worry, that isn't me."

Xie Xi also smiled and grabbed the hand on his shoulder. "It was right to leave the army. If I had to go to the battlefield now, I will definitely become a deserter."

Stars twinkled in Jiang Xie's black eyes. "Because of me?"

Xie Xi looked up at him. "If the heart is worried then it is inevitable to be timid."

Jiang Xie kissed him and whispered, "You aren't a deserter. By leaving the army, you can do more for this country."

Love and righteousness weren't mutually exclusive but could be complementary. It was just like big love and little love. They could love a person and their country. The heart was big but it would become as vast as the universe because of a person.

J's last part of the dream was like this. Xie Xi was once again sitting on the sofa while watching the news. The contents that emerged was that the e981 rebels were recruited and the leader X was admitted to the underage protection facility due to being a minor.

That's fine… Little Jiang's treatment was much better than Big Jiang but he was still locked up, which wasn't much different from reality. Unfortunately, Xie Xi wasn't the president int he dream and he didn't enter the presidential palace, let alone meet Little Jiang.

Jiang Xie started to pretend again. "This X is really young."

Xie Xi muffled the laugh in his heart. "He looks exactly the same as you."

Jiang Xie questioned, "Isn't my face very auspicious?"

Xie Xi glared at him. "Don't talk nonsense."

Jiang Xie liked his anxious appearance and joked, "Do you like my face?"

How could Xie Xi not know what this person wanted to hear? "I like you."

Jiang Xie's heart jumped and he looked solemn. "Again… say it again."

Xie Xi spoke earnestly, "I don't know if this is love but I want to see you all the time, I want to be with you all the time, I want to keep this life forever… I hope I can always see you when I open my eyes."

Jiang Xie's eyelashes slightly trembled and he smiled like he was embracing all the beauty of the world.

"This is love."

He filled his regrets by recounting the most beautiful vows to Xie Xi. "This time, I won't leave you alone."

Living together and dying together was the greatest fortune for two people who loved each other.

After leaving J's dream, Xie Xi was still in a bit of a trance.

The time in the dream was trivial. It felt like a long time but in fact, it was only a few hours. However, the concept of time was never constant in the central government. Whether it was long or short was based on the individual.

J was still asleep and Xie Xi couldn't help touching his forehead.

The souls were different but the essence was the same. They might be different because of different experiences in life but the inside was always the same person.

This was the person that Xie Xi was familiar with and loved.

The process of collecting the souls allowed Xie Xi to gain a slow understanding of Jiang Xie. His understanding was comprehensive and the variety of situations couldn't hide his own Jiang Xie.

He might always complain about the souls doing things but this was an opportunity to understand his lover in all aspects, which was crucial for Xie Xi.

He wasn't good at understanding others but now he had learnt a lot.

Communication, tolerance and trust.

The experience of the quasi-world was like an exercise, eliminating future dangers and obstacles and covering them with beautiful romantic flowers.

Xie Xi left J's room and went to Big Jiang.

This was too miserable. At least J had the sweetness of the first 200 years. It was true that he had nine rounds of abuse but once a person had a sweet memory, the pain would be washed away and they wouldn't feel bitter when thinking about it.

Big J wasn't the same. Before seeing the memories that Xie Xi erased, he always felt that he had fallen in love with a rational who didn't understand love. His brain abused himself. Then he saw Xie Xi's memories and realized that Xie Xi loved him but they missed each other. This made him feel even more abused.

In particular, he felt that he had hurt Xie Xi and felt guilt and remorse. It was unknown how uncomfortable he was feeling.

He might be given a sleeping agent but Big Jiang slept in a very restless manner.

Xie Xi entered and saw this person's furrowed brow and clenched fists. His mood was too bad and his sleep wasn't steady. Xie Xi stood by and waited for a while. Once this person slightly calmed down, he used Dreaming.

There was a slight dizziness and Xie Xi opened his eyes to a stimulation that shot from his waist to his brain.

Xie Xi, "…"

Fortunately, the kitten was left out of the dream or it would be too unsuitable for children!

If he knew then he would've entered earlier. This person took a long time to calm down and who knew he was dreaming about this?

Xie Xi got through it with great difficulty until the sky had brightened. His SSS-grade physique wasn't useless and Jiang Xie had handled him carefully, so there was no discomfort.

Jiang Xie came in while wearing a loose bathrobe. "Breakfast is ready."

Xie Xi got up, only to find his legs were a bit soft.

Jiang Xie supported him and said, "I'll go and get your breakfast." He talked this way and Xie Xi's ears trembled from itchiness.

Xie was so lazy that he simply said, "Okay."

Jiang Xie didn't say anything else. He carefully placed Xie Xi on the bed and turned away.

Xie Xi took the opportunity to look and found that Big Jiang was a bit cold.

This dream wasn't a good dream. If he remembered correctly, this was the two people's cold period. Xie Xi had been home for three days and it was almost time for the breakup.

If Jiang Xie wanted to have a good dream, the best node should be when they got together or earlier in the army.

However, perhaps Big Jiang's mood was too grey and his desperation too strong. He couldn't forgive himself so his dream was about the worst time.

This was the period when Xie Xi deliberately maintained his distance and Jiang Xie thought the young rational was finally tired of sex. It was just that Xie Xi didn't break up because of Jiang Xie's boss identity.

This was the most painful time for Jiang Xie because he got a short sweetness but had to wake up.

Speaking the words 'break up' with his own mouth was tantamount to stabbing two knives into his heart.

If Xie Xi didn't dream then Jiang Xie would be stuck in a repeated nightmare of grief and remorse. How could Xie Xi let this person torture himself again? if Jiang Xie wanted to eat a knife, it should be a knife made of caramel that was sweet when bitten into.

Soon, Jiang Xie came back. He pushed a table to the bedside and personally set the tableware. Xie Xi sat by the bed and asked, "Why is there only one set of cutlery?"

Jiang Xie was stunned. "You…"

Xie Xi asked him, "Have you eaten?"

"No."

"Don't you want to eat with me?"

In the memories he had seen, the two years of being together were quite sticky. Otherwise, Xie Xi wouldn't say these words.

Jiang Xie didn't make a sound. Xie Xi hadn't eaten with him since one month ago but today…

Xie Xi knew what this person was thinking. He didn't care if it was strange since stranger things were to come.

"Eat together." Xie Xi pated the spot next to him."

Jiang Xie stated, "The dining cart is too small for two people."

Xie Xi thought about it. "Let's go to the dining room."

An ordinary lover would probably be afraid of being disgusted. However, Jiang Xie just seemed surprised and overwhelmed.

There were even more startling things. Xie Xi asked again, "I can't walk. Can you carry me?"

Big Jiang's head buzzed and he understood what it was like to be a steam train!

Xie Xi found it funny but worked hard to stabilize his expression. "I said that you should stop last night. You…"

Jiang Xie was full of remorse and picked up this person. Xie Xi actually wasn't used to this. He didn't like this posture and felt it was shameful. Of course, he couldn't care now. In any case, it was this person's dream and it wasn't a big deal. Making this person happy was the most important thing.

Fortunately, even in the dream, Jiang Xie knew Xie Xi's temper and there were no outsiders around. Xie Xi sat in the chair and waited for breakfast.

Jiang Xie headed into the kitchen and Xie Xi reminded him, "The dining cart is still in the bedroom."

"The food is cold. I will do it again…" He realized his words were wrong and changed them. "I will let them do it again."

Don't talk about rational people. These days, even emotional people rarely wasted time in the kitchen.

Xie Xi's lips curved. "But I'm hungry now."

The soft, spoiled tone made Big Jiang's heart jump.

Xie Xi continued, "Just eat those dishes. I want porridge."

Jiang Xie was now like a rational, his arms as stiff as a robot. "I will go and get them."

Xie Xi didn't hold back, his eyes full of laughter. "Okay."

Jiang Xie turned his head and saw these beautiful eyes full of love. The next moment, Jiang Xie froze. Xie Xi blinked and vaguely felt that he should've controlled his emotions. Still, he wasn't an actor and couldn't control it live.

Jiang Xie stared at him and called out, "Xiao Xie."

Xie Xi tried to make himself more rational. "Yes?"

Jiang Xie leaned close to Xie Xi, hand touching his face. "This is too unreal."

Xie Xi's heart jumped. The corners of Jiang Xie's lips curved and the smile was full of bitterness. "Am I dreaming?" Otherwise, how could the rational Xie Xi speak to him in such a tone and with this expression in his eyes?

It was too beautiful, just like he dreamt about for countless days and nights.

Unfortunately, a dream was a dream. In reality, Xie Xi was tired of him and already left him.

Xie Xi saw a prompt in the lower right corner. [The dream is coming to an end. Please be ready to leave at any time.]

Other people were awakened by nightmares. Jiang Xie, this person was awakened by a beautiful dream???

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He saw the cooldown was coming to an end and Xie Xi hurriedly withdrew from the dream.

It was really admirable. He gave this person a piece of candy, only for Jiang Xie to think it was fake candy and spit it out. Sure enough, this person was eating… Xie Xi thought about it. Since the knife was too hard and the melon too bitter, he should feed this person durian!

After eating, Xie Xi could use the durian skin to smash Jiang Xie's head and let him sober down.

Xie Xi was afraid he would be seen by Big Jiang. The moment he left the dream, he went outside and waited or a while.

Thanks to the sleeping agent, Jiang Xie woke up and soon fell asleep again.

Xie Xi had Roast Pork Bun go to check first. The kitty reported, "Reporting to Daddy! Father is asleep!"

Xie Xi rubbed his head and rewarded him with a bottle of physical medicine.

He had brought many things with him but unfortunately, this world wasn't difficult. So far, nothing had been used and he only gave the kitten snacks.

Roast Pork Bun meowed, held the physical medicine and drank it.

The use of Dreaming mainly consumed Roast Pork Bun's energy and it was better to supplement this as much as possible. In any case, Xie Xi wasn't lacking in items.

He once again entered the room and observed for a while. Jiang Xie had fallen asleep again but he still wasn't steady. Xie Xi's heart was as soft as cotton candy.

Big Jiang felt a huge amount of guilt and remorse and refused to let go on his own. He felt that everything good was a false dream.

It seemed that the erased memories brought him more stimuli than Xie Xi imagined. This person was really unable to let go of the lost past.

Xie Xi thought about it and placed himself in this position.

It was like winning the first prize but unfortunately, the winning lottery ticket was treated as waste paper and was thrown away.

Even if the lottery ticket was retrieved, it was beyond recognition and he could no longer receive the jackpot.

It was strange when thinking about it.

Xie Xi waited until he saw Jiang Xie's eyes moving. He was sure this person was dreaming and launched Dreaming. Fortunately, the launch was successful and Xie Xi once again entered Big Jiang's dream.

Xie Xi opened his eys and felt the same pain and tiredness.

…It seemed to be the same dream.

Was this Big Jiang's nightmare? Being trapped in the most painful moment and never being able to leave.

This only made Xie Xi more determined to take Jiang Xie out of this nightmare. It was too hard to be caught up in the nightmare.

Thanks to the last experience, Xie Xi didn't dare do anything strange and continued to act out his own rational identity to appease Big Jiang.

Xie Xi was ready to get out of bed when Jiang Xie came him. He looked the same as before. He had just left the shower and his chest was revealed.

This time, Xie Xi was lucky and came in afterwards. He didn't accompany Jiang Xie all night in the dream but after seeing Jiang Xie like this…

Xie Xi told himself seriously, 'I am a rational.'

Cough, a rational shouldn't… brain, stop it!

Jiang Xie told him, "Breakfast is ready."

The line was the same but Xie Xi's answer was different. He didn't say anything and tried to get out of bed on his own. He endured his sore legs and tried to walk to the dining room.

They were unable to eat together in bed and he didn't dare let this person carry him. He could only drag his poor legs to find food.

Xie Xi couldn't help thinking, 'You dug a pit for yourself. Why do you have to drag me in and make me suffer together?!'

Xie Xi didn't ask for help and the rational Jiang Xie didn't help him. Fortunately, he only had to walk a few steps or Xie Xi would be furious.

He had to do these things because Jiang Xie wouldn't eat the good sugar!

The two men sat down face to face and were very quiet.

This also fit the situation where they were about to break up. One was keeping their distance while the other was grumpy after being treated coldly.

Two people with different minds, they sat at the table to eat but it was like chewing wax. Fortunately, Xie Xi wasn't hungry. He only ate a few mouthfuls before stopping.

Jiang Xie glanced at him and asked, "It isn't delicious?"

"I'm not very hungry."

Jiang Xie didn't say anything else. Xie Xi also didn't dare say anything. This dream was too awkward and he couldn't embarrass himself.

He thought for a long time and couldn't come up with a suitable entry point that wouldn't scare Jiang Xie.

It was Jiang Xie who opened his mouth first. He seemed to hesitate, wanting to ask something but not knowing how to ask. Eventually, he wondered, "Where did you go the night before?"

How could Xie Xi know where he went in the dream?!

Jiang Xie saw he was silent and added, "I'm just asking casually."

There was a thick taste of covering something up and Xie Xi didn't dare be careless. He gave a reasonable answer based on a rational's preferences. "I was at work."

A rational was absolutely loyal to their partner and wouldn't cheat under normal circumstances. Of course, this also applied to their partner.

Combined with Xie Xi's state in his memories, it should be that he 'loved' work.

Jiang Xie's demeanour wasn't soothed and he could only slowly retreat. "Pay attention to your body and don't be too tired."

Xie Xi nodded. "Yes."

There were no more topics. In fact, Xie Xi had 100 ways to make Jiang Xie happy but conventional means would only scare this guy. Xie Xi had to act with caution.

After a while, Jiang Xie said, "Today after work, I will wait for you to go home together."

Xie Xi glanced at him, unsure if he should agree to this request or not.

It might be a big problem. Xie Xi replied, "I…" might be late. He hadn't managed to say these words when Jiang Xie interrupted, "If you are busy, just forget it."

Xie Xi, "…" Okay, if this person thought he was busy then he could only be busy.

The two people went to the Ministry of Defense and threw themselves into their busy work.

In general, if the dreamer wasn't present then Xie Xi's side would flash forward. For this type of work, it would normally be over quickly.

However, this dream was unusual. Xie Xi had been working for eight hours and he didn't fast forward at all!

Why was this? Jiang Xie obviously wasn't here. Xie Xi thought for a while before concluding that someone must be observing him in secret.

Couldn't this person allow some progress? Why watch in secret? Did he have to stare at people like this? Too innocent!

Jiang Xie secretly watched him for one day and Xie Xi had to pretend to love work.

Who would've thought? In reality, he had to work and now he still had to work in the dream. Xie Xi was quite certain that he wasn't a rational person.

He, didn't, love, work, at, all! He even wanted to kill this big bastard who forced him to work!

It was hard to get off work but Xie Xi found there were no signs of fast forwarding, indicating that someone was staring at him.

Xie Xi had a dark face and he felt that not only did he have to work hard, he also needed to work overtime!

Oh, he wanted to leave this stupid dream! Jiang Xie couldn't stand it first and looked like he saw Xie Xi by chance. "Are you finished yet?" He sounded like an ordinary colleague.

If this person hadn't been watching for a day, Xie Xi would've seriously believed it!

Xie Xi got up and said, "Yes."

Jiang Xie cautiously asked, "Go home together?"

Xie Xi was about to agree when a real colleague called out to him. "Xiao Xie, there is a document here. Can you help me?"

Xie Xi, "…"

Jiang Xie's attitude was calm. "You are busy. I will go back first."

With that, he left and went away…

Xie Xi almost wanted to pull this person back to beat him up. 'Busy, you big ghost. Working overtime for so long and also making me work overtime! Is this your nightmare or my nightmare?'

Even worse, Xie Xi didn't fast forward which showed that the dreamer was still watching him silently. He pretended to leave but was still secretly observing.

What could Xie Xi do?

His psychotic lover, couldn't he coax himself?

Xie Xi patiently endured it and got up once he finished. He headed to the aircraft without turning his head (for fear there was work).

There was still no fast forward during this time on the road, showing that Jiang Xie was watching him from a place that couldn't be seen.

Xie Xi cooled down by drinking a mouthful of black tea.

He couldn't help wondering if this was the same in reality.

During the time when Xie Xi tried to distance himself from Jiang Xie, this person was watching him every day. He didn't dare bother or be too close to Xie Xi. The coldness of rationality eroded his hot heart and he finally couldn't stand it anymore and woke up.

This was only one day in the dream. In reality, Jiang Xie had experienced it for two months. Was this how he tortured himself for two months? Xie Xi's heart burned with pain again.

After returning home, it was already 2 o'clock in the morning and Xie Xi was so tired he fell asleep straight away.

Jiang Xie carefully protected this person in his arms and slept unsteadily.

Xie Xi felt it but couldn't do anything. The place that shouldn't be skipped was mercilessly fast forwarded. By the time Xie Xi opened his eyes, it was already a new day.

This continued for a full two days and Xie Xi didn't find a suitable breakthrough point.

How could he open Jiang Xie's heart? Taking the initiative to honestly confess his love would directly wake up this person…

Was there any way to change this bad dream?

Finally, there was a turnaround in the afternoon.

A bell man was needed to ring the so-called bell. Xie Xi saw Comrade J and knew the bell man was in place!

Hey, wasn't the bell man and the bell the same person? The bell was Big Jiang, the bell man was J and they were all Jiang Xie. There was no problem.

Xie Xi came out and J hurried up to him. In J's dream, Big Jiang had died. In Big Jiang's dream, J was crazy. When it came to blackening himself, Jiang Xie spared no effort.

J cried out emotionally, "Xiao Xie, I finally found you."

Xie Xi, "…" The man was set to fall too much. This was too dramatic!

Since Big Jiang must be watching, Xie Xi calmed down and asked, "You are?"

J asked, "Have you forgotten? I'm your first round partner."

Xie Xi's goosebumps were uncontrollable and he hurriedly pulled out the main point. "Aren't you an emotional? I am a rational. How can we be partners?"

"Why not? Even if you are a rational, you still love me."

This was too embarrassing! At least J saw Big Jiang's desire to 'die for the country' and allowed him a glorious death!

Xie Xi choked back a laugh and said, "Please don't say this. A new round is a new life, not to mention that I already have a partner."

J froze, his face shocked. Xie Xi couldn't help wanting to ask Big Jiang, 'You must be working really hard. How can you make him have such an ugly expression?'

J explained, "Xiao Xie, you were the Chief Justice in your first round. You can go see your memories and you will find that you love me."

Xie Xi's eyes were bright. He knew what an important clue this was and muttered, "I am a rational, I…"

Then Jiang Xie appeared with a cold expression. "This gentleman, reincarnation is a new life. Please don't bother my lover."

For a moment, there was a strong presence in the air.

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